So, I've been having a LOT of issues with my weight and how I see myself lately. After repeatedly worrying my boyfriend and my friends over and over again with my self hate and eating issues, I decided to finally, try and put my feelings and thoughts in to simple words and images. And, my problem is... Well... I don't have the body I want, and I mentally exaggerate any problems and flaws I see.
Other than the obvious gender dysphoria from being trans, I also suffer from weight issues. Not unfounded ones; I am noticeably fat. Very much so. However, while I am fat, I'm not THAT overly heavy. And, I have made slow, painful progress in losing much of it. Anxiety, depression, trauma, stress, medication that stops me from feeling hunger, and constant financial issues have made it hard to lose weight, and may have even contributed to my weight gain. But, I am working on myself, and my issues.
I need to learn to love myself. Not to say I accept being overweight. But, I need to stop treating my body like my enemy, like a disgusting, ugly mess.
Also, @SalamenceCake is a friend of mine who's, shall we say, REALLY in to fat girls.
