So on Valentines day my grandma died of cancer... I never saw her while she was suffering from it... It took her before I got down... And I cant help but feel guilty since I wasnt there for her... I should have seen her sooner... She gave me a horse plushie she had a long time ago I still kept... She always loved horses... Wish she was able to have a horse like she always wanted...
I never feel like im there for ppl when I should be most... Just like my friend
... When he died several years ago in an accident I was so wrapped up in college I didnt even know till months later... I shouldnt even feel this way when I dont deserve to be sad.... I hate myself for throwing a pity party... It's already shameful enough... even more so I of all ppl least deserve to feel this way when Im to blame for my foolishness...
It always hurts to lose someone. I remember when my grandma died, I hadn't talked to her in so long. I hadn't visited her in so long. I know she loved me. She came up to me and hugged while crying as she told me 'happy birthday.' It was a month before my birthday, but it still shown how much she cared for me. I feel awful for never visiting her, but I know she'd want me to be happy. I'm sure your grandma would want you to be happy too. Don't feel bad about making a post about it. It's ok to be sad. It's ok to feel bad for yourself. Nothing hurts more than losing someone.
It always hurts to lose someone. I remember when my grandma died, I hadn't talked to her in so long.
Thank you c': I appreciate your nice words <3 It helps me feel better knowing its okay to be sad :'> It's at least comforting hearing someone else say that c':
Thank you c': I appreciate your nice words <3 It helps me feel better knowing its okay to be sad :'>
My grandmother passed on christmas day of 2015, so I understand the double whammy of losing someone on a holiday and being nowhere near them- my mother had dragged me out of state to go see HER mom while mine was fading away from lung cancer- the grandma who raised me. Time heals all wounds- eventually you'll get used to them being gone. You'll never stop missing them, but the pain of missing them will fade.
Hang in there, Niko. And don't feel bad for venting your feelings- this is a perfect tribute to her.
My grandmother passed on christmas day of 2015, so I understand the double whammy of losing someone
I know too well how you feel. My Grandma died 2 years ago of a severe heart attack in the hospital. I had no idea it was going on, nor that she had died until my father called me @ 2:30 in the morning. I too blamed myself for not being there for her. Its never easy losing someone so close to you. But remember this: No matter what, she will always be with you, Niko. She lives on in your heart and in the memories you have of her. Hold tight to them, and keep walking forward my friend. Remember, you are never alone
I know too well how you feel. My Grandma died 2 years ago of a severe heart attack in the hospital.
Thank you c': That is very true and I hope not s; sometimes it can feel pretty lonely ;n; Dont have many friends these days that I trust like I used to s'; But I do have a few friends im close to at least ;w; Just have trust issues do to being hurt by others so much s'; Thank you for taking the time to leave a message though <3 Helps me feel comfort knowing there are some ppl who care ;u;
Thank you c': That is very true and I hope not s; sometimes it can feel pretty lonely ;n; Dont have
There are things you can't control in life. Accidents, loss of loved ones, and various other things. It's just like that, it's life. Never forget her, and always remember your friend. These things happen, Niko. Just remember one thing: weep not for those who are gone, but for those who are left behind. Those who have passed are no longer suffering, and are free now. We, the ones behind, are those who are suffering more than they ever will in the future. I know the pain of loosing your grandparent. I lost my granddad back in 2015, and I still miss him. I have a small memento of him, an anchor with some of his ashes as he loved to go boating when he could. I grew up with him more than other family members, so he was the one I loved a lot. Like a second father, I sobbed hard when he passed as I was never going to see him again, but I always remember that I have him in my heart, and close to me with that anchor.
There are things you can't control in life. Accidents, loss of loved ones, and various other things.
