When you feel bored in school, listening to things that matter not. When the teacher calls you out for not understanding and everyone laughs. When the big kids knock you down and release their anger on you. When the nurse cleans your bruises with alcohol…
Be still
When your knees hurt from kneeling down for hours. When your parents repeat for the thirtieth time that they are disappointed of what you did. When you have to fake a face of regret cause you’re not sorry for living your life…
Be still
When your brain starts taking their yelling as white noise, as a background sound and you’re left alone with your thoughts, unable to move, unable to stop crying…
Be still
When you wipe your tears and the moon is no longer on your window, when you look at your clock and it’s 3 am. When your eyes are dry, and your throat all sore…
Be still
When your hands hurt, and the wall is tainted red. When you look at the red lines in your arms…
When you have to smile and thank those who harm you in fear of more damage.
When you feel you’re about to break and you can’t take it anymore.
When you’re thinking of giving up…
Be still
When you’re called a failure, and blamed for everyone’s problems. When you have a busted nose. When you cover yourself on the ground so the kicks aren’t as harmful…
Be still
When you finally break and throw back your first punch. When you yell back at those who harm you. When you are sick of suffering…
When you realize you’ve just gone past the point of no return. When you realize you better return all the damage they’ve done to you before you get knocked out…
When you get up, all hurt and beaten and your muscles ache in pain… When you want to try again…
Be still
When they tell you, they wish you were never born, when they keep saying you’re harming them and you’re selfish, when you are trying to give and be nice…
When you’re feeling the pain in your skin, wishing you had the strength to cut deeper, when you look at the void just a step further and feel the urge to jump…
Be still
When you’re tired of enduring all the pain, be still
And when you’re finally on your own, when you finally get out, be free.
