Some days it really can be hard. As if even taking a breath might be your last. That weight...that unbearable weight and emptiness. It's been there so long, you begin to wonder if that is how this shall be forever. Slowly sinking beneath the waters until one day..you just drown.
Working with and changing these feelings, I know it's not easy. I know some days like now when I wake up, I feel defeated before I've even left the bed. Deep down, I know I have a lot to work with, and despite any ill thought, it does not define my destiny. Nor does it define yours.
We're better than this....we're worth more than this.. I'm going to do my best today, even if that means just talking about my feelings. Even if that means challenging the beliefs I've grown too comfortable with all these years.
If you can hear me wherever you are, don't feel alone. A lot of things like me, we're struggling right there with you. Our strength is that we have not succumbed together.