The last few days I have been most busy making preparations as it would appear my time was somewhat more limited than originally expressed and understood. I will be going into a blackout period around June 2'nd. During this time however I will be transitioning into a temporary living location that will be without internet. I cannot guarantee any date of when I shall return, but I wanted you all to know that I've really appreciated you sticking with myself, and being so very generous with your overwhelming support, and good will.
When the shocking news had come that day that I would need to find a place elsewhere, I was near devastated. I'd only been making ends meet with my current living situations. I was in a panic, and the best I could do was just be graceful and grateful. I would tell people " I'm sure I'll be fine. " all the while feeling alone and terrified. I'd talk with people who said they were my friends , but they were always dodgy, would say good luck and..well, they don't talk to me that much anymore.
I felt sick for a lot of days, just settling in my stomach as I scrambled for a second job, tried to manage travel and time, and some way to save up more money to even have any shot at a deposit elsewhere. I shut down a bit as each interview became the same smile and same end result of decline. I felt like I was drowning...
And then something happened. Word started to come around. There was talk of my troubles, and I'd started receiving donations. Such generous donations that I neared over $900, and I finally had the break down. The terrible thoughts that those closer to me would watch as I fell away...and the humbling gratitude that complete strangers and individuals came together and gave without a single word.
I'm very thankful for all of your help, because it's the largest reason I have even the backing for the temporary living situation. I'm going to keep trying. I'm going to keep putting my best foot forward and doing my best. It may take a little while longer but I'll be back. May good health find you all, and thanks for sitting with me up to this time.
Just hold this close to your heart, friend; everything is going to be okay. A good friend of mine helped me to understand how potent the power of hope can be, and I suspect from your advice postings that you understand that too. :-)
You take all the time you need, we'll hold things down here, and we'll be ready to rejoin your unique brand of storytelling whenever you're able to come back. n_n
Just hold this close to your heart, friend; everything is going to be okay. A good friend of mine he
