It always seems to spiral around and around until it reach's the end and starts all over again. The good the bad it dose not matter none of it lasts long until it ends and starts again bring more and more confused and lost feelings and counterbalance's that seem to never want to unwind or unfold to lay out the inner most deepest plans of my heart. Some tell me to keep battling and move forward while others tell me to stop and just take what I have and be grateful for that and nothing more, and I can never tell which side is right or which side I should listen to. For the sounds just keep getting louder and louder over time until my head can no longer stand it and goes into a self reboot of sorts like that of what one would do to a computer when it crash's it's last crash.
Even this now starts to feel like something I have said or done time and time again just for it to pass and then return and I do it again. I Wonder if it will ever stop or if it will keep going like a tornado spinning out of control and destroying every thing in it's path.
I sadly just do not know. I will go now good bye
4 years, 11 months ago
09 Sep 2013 01:36 CEST