Yes, I am still working and trying to rebuild my relationship with Mixy. I know I have done a lot wrong, and have been working on real changes to myself.
I just really wish he can see that I really do love and care about him, and do hope that I may have the honor of being his once more...
Also, I have begun getting more into my old hobby of nature photography.... But I will only post those pics to TNSC.
I have written a lot of poetry to express how hurt I have been from this whole situation... The last one will be posted soon as well.
I do want to make it clear: I know I screwed up, and for that I am sorry. I let my jealousy get the best of me, and let it upset me - over things that I had agreed upon being ok. In that light, I had gone back on my own word - and presented dishonor to myself. It was extremely stupid, childish, and selfish of me.
I also know that I normally am not like that. I tend to be rather easy going and laid back. So it was also very unlike me to allow such negativity take over.
And because of that, I have caused myself an immense amount of pain, sorrow, and lonliness.
And while I would like to have Mixy forgive me for my actions, I must also apologize to everyone else it affected - which included a number of my friends as well.