"Why is it so common/normal for one to go into a relationship with someone, to see if one wants to be in a relationship with said someone."
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that's the question everything after this is more of an explanation for why i'm asking:
I figure it would be good to get other peoples opinions on this issue.
This has stemmed from a fear I've had since a very young age that has seemingly screwed up any chances at a love life. I never understood why my friends were so eager to have boyfriends or girlfriends since it looked like every time they jumped into a relationship they did it with someone whom they either just met... or were sorta friends with but didn't know them all too well. Guess what happened to each relationship... Breakups...
Oh the age of breakups I somehow experience through the numerous relationships OTHERS have had... each time I thought "What did you expect!? you had NO idea if you loved this person or not and you decided to date them anyway! Why are you so upset that it didn't work out!?", of course, as the shoulder to cry on friend, it would be irresponsible of me to be so blunt with them. (in my opinion).
But looking back it feels like I went through several break ups without once being in an actual relationship, all the unpleasantness of the ending wreak without ever once feeling any sort of pleasure from the actual relationship. I've been asked out by girls before and most situations i've turned them down because I either didn't know them, or I KNEW I didn't love them. (Except the first time... cuz i was in 5th grade and THAT time can be explained because A. I knew I had no knowledge on how to be a good boyfriend B. I had seen a few breakups by that point C. I actually liked this girl and didn't want to ruin any chances with her by dating her so early in our lifetimes.)
Well... turning her down in 5th grade in hopes of dating later on didn't work... because after that I got Friend zoned from 6th grade to High school graduation. ( Being a sheltered "Nice Guy" tends to get that result in most people it seems . ~ .; )
So I ask this... why is dating what people do to FIND OUT if they love the person... To me it is something to do when you've FOUND OUT you love the person... And I know that if i want to ever successfully date who I'm in love with, I really really really don't want to have it flop like all the other relationships I've witnessed.
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10 Jun 2013 15:01 CEST
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