I have done a lot of selfish and childish things that has caused a lot of pain and suffering to those I care about.
I have allowed fear and insecurity turn me into a monster.
I have hurt a lot of friends and family, and all I can do now is learn from my mistakes - and hope that I may be forgiven.
My deeds have in turn caused me pain, for I have lost everything I held dear to my heart. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could have it all back. I know I cannot, but I can learn and grow.
I do hope that the damage can be repaired, and that all can be mended, including my own broken heart.
I would love it, and be truly happy if what I held dear - and whom I care about - can return to me someday.
For those I have hurt, allow me to apologize. I am truly sorry. I was wrong.
At the very least, I hope my apology is accepted and that I may be forgiven.
Please understand that I am not writing this expecting any sort of response. I just want those whom I have hurt to understand that I am sorry - and that I am working on improving myself. This includes those I hold dear to my heart.
Also, I no longer want to be the cause nor the center of any drama. It has happened far too much and has led to nothing but pain and lonliness.