. . . you may know this, but there's a contest for fame and recognition, so said Inkbunny. https://inkbunny.net/journalview.php?id=77698 Unfortunately, it's a contest, which means that I will lose, no matter if I participate or not. To win could mean attention, and thus, people can start commissioning me. But to win is impossible for me . . . It isn't like anything I make will convince my true talent to anyone . . .
. . . and really, no one wants to hire me, not even burger joints . . . it's as if the world is telling me that there isn't any room for me . . .
Yes, I'm doomed . . . well, maybe if I don't exist, that wouldn't matter . . .
I would like to make artworks for fun, but considering my situation, I have to take seriously and use my "talent" to make money. Unfortunately, I need people willing to make profit. I need an audience . . . and it isn't just for art commissions. What would happen if I made a game and publish it for download via Steam or Google Play? Would anyone notice the game? Everything is about advertisement! Everything is about grabbing attention! So . . . if no one notice my hard work as well as anything I create, will I even become successful? In a time in which I need an audience to make money, I doubt so . . .
. . . I understand if you can't realize this . . . Nothing I said will convince anyone . . . maybe I'll disappear like I should . . . betrayed by everyone . . . abandoned by everyone . . . there's no hope at all for me . . . I'm an accident . . . I'm not suppose to exist . . .
