...I've always believed that.
So last night I was lying in bed trying to sleep. I was still dealing with my depression and anxieties from the past few weeks. Looking at porn didn't help at all. I felt so guilty about it I starting praying and asking God to forgive me...and I think he heard me. Soon afterwards I thought about all the porn images I've ever seen; especially those Rule 34-related. And I was thinking "Is this how I wanna remember these characters? The ones that shaped my childhood?" Suddenly I found myself throwing away all the adult cartoon images I've printed out and erased up to 1,000 images from my computer.
You know I keep saying that I'm gonna cut down on internet porn? Well THIS time I mean it!
First, let me reassure you that I'm NOT leaving the fandom! I'm just gonna focus more on what I really wanna do in it; Draw, perform stand-up, and attend cons and meets. I still have plenty of furry pics. Those I'll hang on to.
Second, this is a slow gradual process. I'm taking baby steps towards dealing with my addiction. I'm gonna start using what little free time I have more wisely. I'm gonna work on my art. I'm gonna write more stand-up material. I've gotta ton of DVDs I haven't watched in a LONG time.
I hope was hoping for change in my life; this was totally unexpected. But I'm glad it happened.
5 years, 7 months ago
21 Feb 2013 01:41 CET