First I want to apologize to people who've been wanting me to check out your stories, or linking me to ones you think I'll enjoy. Fact is, I probably will, and most of the stories I do read are very good, so it's certainly not the quality. Most of you who have linked me to stories saying "I think you'll like this one" know me at least well enough to most likely be right about that, so the problem is certainly not the content.
The problem isn't with the writer, or with anyone who wants to show me a good story, the problem is with me. I feel rather shitty about it because I do want to check them out, and sometimes I can, but conditions have to be JUST right for me to be able to read it and enjoy it.
See, most of the time, I usually can't do any one thing for too long, no matter how interesting it is. As much as I want to read books, after a little bit of reading, I'll catch myself looking down the pages, and actually turning the pages, but not reading. I go on auto-pilot of sorts, and when I catch it, I have to go back and find the spot where I last remember reading, which is very difficult because losing the story in that way is a gradual process. This makes books and stories very frustrating for me for the most part.
It's difficult to explain, and I couldn't tell you anything that doesn't have exceptions. If I find a story that I want to read, I'll put a link to it on my desktop to read when conditions are right, but sometimes I don't get to it for weeks or even months, so I don't keep more than one or two story links up at a time.
It's not all bad though. There are some advantages. This vastly improves the replayability of most of my games for one, because each time I play, I might experience different parts of them more prominently than others.
I don't know if I'm making any sense, but I just ask that if you want me to read a story and i decline, please don't hold it against me.
5 years, 6 months ago
13 Feb 2013 23:46 CET