Due to a large amount of schoolwork due tomorrow & a throat anatomy quiz that I have to study for, there will be no stream tonight. I'll do my best to schedule it in for tomorrow or Wednesday, but if I can't, I'll have the stream on Friday as per usual.
Shadesfox, I'll work on your commission Friday in stream. If I don't get it done, I'll keep on working on it, but we will get things moving.
Derby Runner, your stuff will be done by Friday, no worries. Though I might have to ask you for the information again. I'll look for it when I'm not mulling over school crap.
I thank you all for your patience and understanding! I do appreciate it. I've been finding it hard to concentrate and I've been a bit ill lately. My teeth have been bothering me and I've had a lack of energy. Been kind of mopey, you know those feelings.
It's not a big deal, of course. I'll get over it. I'm just a little behind schedule on my commissions, is all. I am rather appreciative of those of you who are willing to wait and have patience with me. To those of you with specified deadlines (the Valentine's pics, mostly), I will pull through. Don't worry. I'm still learning how to 'work' when it comes to art, so I have stumbling blocks now and again.
Still, business is good so far and I appreciate that more than anything. I'm happy that you all enjoy my work.
I'm going back and forth between doing a comic and working on a game. I have ideas for both, but it's hard getting started because I only vaguely know about comic making and I barely know anything about game making. But they're both things I want to do.
I think the comic could make a bit of money and it seems like something fun to do. I think people with similar tastes to my own would enjoy it quite a bit. The game is something I've wanted to do for a long time. I really want to bring to life the trials of one of my characters, uncensored and unadulterated, and I think that's the best way to do it. It would be a more traditional adventure game but I don't know how to program it or what sort of programs or engines I would even start out with. I've gotten a few things together but only time will tell. I might end up doing it in HTML. We'll see what happens.
I'm just kind of terrified to start anything, for fear of doing it badly. But if I don't, then it'll never get done. And of course, there's the time I'm obligated to the rest of you, which I don't take lightly in the least. I owe you what you've paid, and then some, and that's a big responsibility!
These are just the kind of things I mull over when I'm sick. I feel weak and impotent, and I don't feel that I have the strength of will to succeed. It creeps into everything. My school work, my art, my everyday activities.
What's worse is I know better. But it's still paralyzing.
But I'll be okay. I'm always okay. I just need to get over it. And I will, sooner or later.
5 years, 9 months ago
04 Feb 2013 22:30 CET