This isn't quite a status update journal... It's more an explanation and apology.
I have been in a bad state lately. In fact, I feel downright horrible. I haven't been sleeping much at all, and when I DO sleep, I toss and turn most of the night. I just feel ill and lethargic, even though I'm not actually sick.
Compounding issues, I have been in an almost constant state of depression for the last week or so. I'm just sad and tired and angry... and tired of being sad and tired and angry. To be honest, I usually have a yearly depression phase that sets in around Valentine Day due to numerous childhood traumas relating to this day (I was bullied all to hell), but this one is worse than my usual just being angry at the world.
...I want to apologize to EVERYONE. I have been short, rude, taciturn, neglectful and more. It's not me. It's not who I am. I don't know when I'll come out of this funk, but until then, this is the best I can do to alleviate issues. I can apologize for my past... and probably future behavior. If I've been mean or rude to anyone, I truly am sorry for it.
...That's all I have to say. I haven't done much work on any writing, so don't expect anything new except a commission or two in the near future.
Rock on guys and gals.
5 years, 10 months ago
24 Jan 2013 22:51 CET