Yeah, it's another one of those "then and now" deals. I'm still thinking about what I've typed about on my last journal. Nothing do worry for those that replied to it. It's not the fact that no one has replied to my journals or submissions. Even if there's none, I still appreciate the favs and views regardless. No, this is about everything all together. It's about my journals here and on Livejournal, my IMs that I now have on periodically through the day, the Xbox when I log on. It's the ones that I've connected with in the LAFF-list for the longest of times ever since the start of the fandom. Especially the ones that brought me into this fandom. They are the ones that I expect to hear something from by now.
I'm back...on my feet and everything and yet...nothing from them. No "HEY! You got a job now!" or "Been a long while, I'm happy that things are finally going through for you." Nothing...I hate that! And what?...Am I suppose to message them like a spazztastic kid demanding attention? As much as I want to cub-wise, I know better than to do that. It's a really tough reality (gut)check to endure mentally. I'm pretty sure if I hadn't been exiled from FA then none of this wouldn't have happened either. But then again, what would they care? Hell, the only furs that ever kept tabs on me from the get go now is
and Chanur (the one that helped me and Blaze find jobs) for that I'm majorly grateful. Everything's okay with me for the most part though. I've dealt with similar issues as much as I can count over the years. This will pass.
Overall, those that have been keeping tabs on me throughout the past couple of years I humbly thank you from the bottom of this feline's heart. Aside from my mate, you are the ones that has kept this cat moving forward. It'll be different starting the new year on a somewhat clean slate starting in March. And who knows? Maybe when Wesyl goes public I might have some old furs recognize me too. But like everything else, I'll just have to wait and see. Until that time comes I'm making sure that preparations are in full order.