Hi, all. Turns out I made two deadly calculations ^^; One: I thought I had swim practice today, when it turns out the season starts tomorrow. So, now I have today to focus on other things instead of swimming. Second: I assumed because there was no snow in my area for last winter, that I wouldn't have to worry this year about snow, so now I have to re learn to drive in a snowy winter climate by January, which is the soonest I can go for my full license. Once I have that, I'M ALMOST FREE!!!
Anyways... Now for stuff.
So... Remember how I was going to do voice things? Unfortunately, over the last year... My cousin developed... An extreme accent ^^; so... Yeah... Also, she's gone now. Well... I guess I'll just do me.
Another thing... I'm making this official statement: art trades are open, requests CLOSED, Commissions please.
Also... Good news, everyone! I FOUND MY PEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I can has digital arts again after I relearn how to! *Dansen*
Another thing... I love this trimester so far. Except I think I'm going to have a problem in Bible lit. In this class, we are supposed to treat God as a character in a book; read it not as a religious text, but as a story, like any other book. I believe in God, father of the almighty, creator of heaven and earth, of all things visible and invisible. Etc. so... It'll be a stretch for me to look at it from an atheistic viewpoint, but I'll try for school's sake.
Hmm... Anything else? Oh, yeah. I found out from the bank today that both my checking and savings are drained. I had over $300 in the two combined! And I know exactly who "borrowed" it too. So I'm kind of in a mal mood.
Oh. If you don't want to read of nightmarish stuff, skip period between lines.
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For awhile I've been having no dreams concerning my death or suicide. Then suddenly, a series of dreams containing my death. The worst being last night.
I was minding my own business, sitting in in the woods. It was night, a full moon, and it was snowing lightly. I knew what was coming, but I waited anyway. Then the sky familiarly darkened, and I was surrounded by the purest of darkness. I closed my eyes, not wanting to see that dreaded form. But I still heard him. I told him I wasn't afraid of him anymore, and he just laughed, because that was such a lie.
He started listing the reasons my life was not worth continuing. As he did so, I grabbed the silver cross from my godparents, and his voice weakened for awhile. I felt a sharp pain, and the silver was melted. He told me if God cared about me, then I wouldn't be like I was. That brought me right near the edge. As I was readying to submit to that evil in my mind, I heard a male voice, and it just said: "he's lying." After that, I don't remember much, except I woke up crying... I wonder who it was that spoke to me...
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... Well... Maybe I should switch to lighter topics now? Yeah. That would be best. As I was typing this journal, I found out my mom had gotten some of my money back in to my account, so now I'm happy. Its not the full amount, but at least it is some. And now I need to change my codes ^^
And... ... Yeah. That's it. Except, my sister is like a better version of me. I think she may even have my abilities. And if she did, she's showing signs at half the age I was. She's 8. I was 14 when I started really making any sig progress.
Well, that's all. I'm out.
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