You’ve probably noticed that I have a tendency to explain every single thing I do and believe in, with almost nauseating amounts of detail and specificity.
I was raised by a very narcissistic step-father, and while my mother also had a part in how I turned out, most of what I suffered through was a result of my step-father’s behavior.
Narcissistic parents can be incredibly cruel, are easily triggered, often extremely offended by innocent things. These are the kinds of people who see someone minding their own business on a sidewalk and will slow their car down to a crawl, roll down their window, and curse that person out for being weird. To be raised by someone like that is to be on constant edge, always fearful, always doing everything you can not to wake up the monster, and always feeling like you have to explain everything you do in order to reduce (though it only rarely eliminates) the amount of punishment you will receive for being weird.
Well, old habits are hard to break, and I’ve been trying to break my habit of explaining every little thing I do or believe in.
I’m going to be re-writing my profile on IB as well as some of the things I do on Steam, because I started explaining everything in order to appease narcissists online who have essentially tried to take the place of my step-father. The thing is, I shouldn’t have to do that. What should have to be done is for them to behave politely towards me, even if they think I’m weird. A novel concept, I know, and an offensive one to those who seek validation by bullying “weird” people online or in real life.
You know, it’s funny in a way: they call me “snowflake” and accuse me of being “triggered” because I ask them to stop harassing me or because I block them when they refuse. Yet when you look honestly at it, the only “triggered” people (or “snowflakes”) are the harassers themselves, as they feel that they are special and have the right to harass total strangers over things that don’t matter to anyone else. They’re like the raiders in Fallout 4 that yell “ONLY A FUCKING COWARD HIDES” while hiding behind a wall and being backed up by a small army of their buddies. They accuse me of wanting an echo chamber while living in one themselves.
Anyway, I’m going to re-write my profile here to be more simple and concise. If you want explanations, I’ll put them in my journals where they belong. But my personal beliefs aren’t something I should have to explain, nor should I have to defend them when wrongly accused by random troublemakers on the Internet.
I may still tell people I’m blocking them, as being blocked suddenly and without any kind of indication as to why is a terrible thing to go through. While I wouldn’t be bothered by terrible people going through said terrible things, I don’t like the idea of practicing the same shit that bad actors use on me. Depending on the situation, I’ll keep telling people. They may call me “coward,” but again, it’s the person hiding behind a wall backed up by a dozen buddies that’s saying it. There’s nothing brave to be had in someone like that.
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