Funny name for a journal, right? It correlates with a rare disease I have called, anal stenosis.
Basically, my sphincter/butt hole is very small. This causes a lot of issues, and has brought extreme pain in a critical location. Hemmerioids are the least painful thing in there, with the fissuring being the worst.
When I write about sex, it's difficult for me to do anal scenes, because thinking about the subject brings all my agony to the forefront.
I've done a couple scenes with two boys before but ...I would like to write about all the sex stuff I love, even if it is difficult. Sometimes it's just too difficult.
However...
I've also put myself on a soft diet, and it's working with keeping 'me ass outt'a the fire, so to speak.
I just haven't done much of anything lately. Maybe I'm not inspired. I keep going back to stories that are unfinished, and I change them. I lack confidence in my abilities.
I don't know what I want to do, or how I'm going to do it, but I want to get back into writing. It's something that always calmed me down, being able to jot down thoughts into a manifestation of my own designs.
Well.
I'm trying to do better. But, sigh....
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