Recently I have written a few smutty stories and have gained a few followers. I feel that as I write this stuff, I should be up front and honest with anybody who reads my works. I’m very likely not going to be writing smut for long.
For context, I am a religious person who has used pornography in various forms since I was a teenager. I ‘left’ my faith for a time after I graduated high school, but in the past four or five years I have found myself drawn back to it for various reasons. I’m also married to a wonderful woman who is also deeply religious and we recently had a kid. I intend to put in whatever work is necessary to make sure that my relationships with my family are successful and lasting. All this to say, my porn usage and now my writing have given me some ‘religious guilt.’
I’m not coming here to preach to anyone. I don’t want to convert anyone, guilt anyone, or argue that porn is or isn’t bad. For me this is a deeply personal issue and one which I can see impacting my marriage. I have seen directly how my usage of porn has impacted my attraction to my wife as well as sexual expectations which we have for each other. I’m know that there are numerous people out there who use porn individually, or with their partners, who have had successful happy relationships, but I don’t think that I personally could do that and I know that my wife will not.
So I feel conflicted, but I also know that a part of me is moving away from pornography. My wife and kid are the most important things in my life. I’m probably going to keep writing for now, and I’ll keep my justifications to myself, but there is a time coming when I’ll be done.
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