So a lot of things have happened and kept happening in the past year. Like seriously fucking stop.
I got a job, it went under and may have been a money laundering operation, got a different job, lost it due to management abuse, got another job, they decided they didn't like me, got another job, bullshit happened and I lost it, and got another job after that and that's where I'm at now.
We lost Punkie last year, found another dog, found yet another dog, found a third dog then lost Buckie, ending up with a net gain of dogs from five to six even though the third one we are only fostering as we look for a forever home. Oh yeah and we have a cat now, even though we're fostering him, too, while he's being treated for many diseases because Texas is a shitswamp forsaken by God.
My mom lost her job because of the trade war tariff bullshit this administration is pulling, twice, and now her new full time job is a baker at home that was originally just a side gig.
I've been exploring my options more seriously to transition, between targeted exercises, hormones, clothes and adopting feminine pronouns and going by Max or Maxxie instead of Lost or my given name, and for fuck's sake to those anti-trans assholes out there most transwomen don't go around looking to chop their cocks and balls off! At there's one less of you now.
I've also been knuckling down more on my writing projects, including one I haven't published yet. It's based in a friend's cyberpunk universe and I ended up writing a literal novel length's worth of text for so far, which ended up exceeding everything she has written for it. Whoops. This is what happens when you ask a writer to write for your setting.
I opened up an AO3 account a few months ago and have since started publishing the works I care to publish there. Ever since ATF went to the Chain Chomps and became a haven for weirdo alt-right libertarians and white supremacists with REALLY disturbing views about the age of consent and what they believe to be their god-given right, I had to get out of there, but there are also very few places that will actually host my work, especially these days with all the internet censorship shit going on.
I'm also considering rewriting some of my older works since remasters are all the craze these days, because I opened up several Pandora's Boxes by remastering the Lap Bunny. Some stories have aged like they drank from the wrong Grail and I would like to repost them on AO3, but not in the shit state they are in.
Finally, in an attempt to start up something that could actually see me making an income doing something I like, I started making a video essay series, called Maximilian Versus, which is about talking about video games in the same vein as Sphere Hunter, Mandalore Gaming, or Civvie11. The goal is to highlight games that are not readily known to people and are either good or interesting, preferably both. Anything to cut through the wall to the people whose only knowledge of gaming is whatever is most publicized this week. I'm setting up the work ethic and pattern and refining my style before I start anything up related to Patreon or whatever system I'm going to use.
So... yeah, I've been here the whole time, but I've been trying to get my personal shit sorted while it has existed in a perpetual hurricane for the past year or two, and at one point literally.
Sounds like a pretty turbulent year indeed. Hope your environment is supportive for your transitioning Max, and hope everythingis going well with it.
As far as I understand hormones can influence your mental state pretty badly while your brain gets used to the new balance, so please take care of yourself and be kind to yourself while you're adapting <3
Sounds like a pretty turbulent year indeed. Hope your environment is supportive for your transitioni
HRT is like second puberty. As for supporters, I'm in a new community full of transpeople and trans supporters, though my family is very much hostile to me transitioning. Most of the people at my new job are supportive; one manager in particular offered to assist with makeup.
There's actually a lot of things that change about you when you go on HRT. Your body constantly regulates and maintains itself through the production of hormones; HRT changes that around. What it doesn't do is change your voice. That's where vocal training comes in.
I've also been taking better care of myself and doubling down on the health changes. I have avoided sodas and junk food for years, and I try to stick to white meats like chicken and fish for protein. I also attempt to go for days without consuming meat at all, sticking to plant-based protein instead. This is where soybeans and hemp seeds come in handy, both of which are the one of the few plant sources of protein that have complete amino chains.
Currently averaging at 164 and 166 pounds, and it's my full intention to get down to 160 in ten weeks.
HRT is like second puberty. As for supporters, I'm in a new community full of transpeople and trans
