Just posting a journal here since it's the only place I can type where not many know me personally.
I'm just a nervous wreak right now but in a good way, mainly since my bf wants me to visit for a week (whenever he and I get time since well he still lives with his parents as do I). It was one of his friends ideas for us to visit each other in our hometowns to see if maybe I'll want to move to California or he'll end up moving to Ohio like we planned. The problem is all my family is here in Ohio and I'd hate to leave them behind if I did choose to move there even if CA is beautiful. I'm just a country girl at heart. ^^;
We'll have to see, I mean yeah we've been together a year as of July but I'm so scared to meet him in person. I've known him for 6 years but meeting anyone in person just scares me to death because I'm afraid of rejection and change... I love him to death though and I don't want our love to die because of my damn shy and nervous nature. He's the first person I've ever had an attraction to and ever felt this love towards. I know he feels bad for kinda pushing this on me but it's only fair even if he's sick and tired of where he lives.
*sighs* Sometimes long distance relationships can be so much stress but I'll be worth it, I know it. <3
6 years, 1 month ago
24 Oct 2012 01:03 CEST