Greetings.
This journal is a little explenation about my upcoming years and how it might effect my artist life and so on and so forth.
But to begin the explenation, I need to start in 2021. There I took an apprentanceship to a "programmer".
The quotation marks are there because the german title for that job is way more complex and I guess being a programer explains it enough.
For those germans who care: "Fachinformatiker in Anwendungsentwicklung"
As a little summerize of german apprentanceships:
You work in a company for three years. You get payed riddiculus little, but your goal is to lern a certain profession. The working itself is more of a sidething (thou of course there are also companys who abuse that system for a riddiculus cheap workforce). In the end you take an standartised exam and after that you hold an official title for... what ever job you lerned.
This system makes sure, that a apprentance for a barber, can actualy cut hair. or that a carpenter can actualy do some skillfull works.
Now my apprentanceship was shit, to say the least. My "teacher" in the company left after 2 months, and then I was basicly stuck in homeoffice for 2 years without any support, or task or... what ever an apprentanceship requires. I revolted against this and brought in the departements of the city, who make sure this doesn't happen. But nothing happened either. Buerocracy is a bitch.
in the end I barely passed my exam by chance, and less by skill. And I got one year of work, which was in my apprentanceship contract assured, IF I do not fail the exams. So I had a job for a year but the company throw me out as soon as possible. This was now this January.
In this year, I was also assigned to a job where I was tasked with something that doesn't even include the field I should have learned! Hardware administration for schools. Yep. That sounds like a programmer, right?
*sigh*
okay so this now leaves me at a point where I have a title, but no knowledge of real work. I am still on the level of a first years apprentance.
And I tried to find a new job, but it's pointless. I am to bad. And Programming is such a whide field of different tasks and specialisations, I can't just "get better". Because I don't know where to start at.
So this all lead now to the hard to swallow dick.. mhm.. pill I mean...
Next month, on the first I start again ANOTHER apprentanceship, because I realized, my old one is literaly useless. Which means another three fucking years with less than 1000 bucks a MONTH for everything. rent, food, electricity, fuel.
Will become a "fun time". Therefor I was trying to enhance Patreon. I was not hoping for much, to be honest. But maybe like 100 bucks a month more. But no. With all the hard work I put into the comic, I get just 19€ a month (21$). Dissapointing for the hours I put into there a month with two pages.
This now means for the next three years, I will either soley focus on patreon and post EVERYTHING on Patreon first. Or ditch any comic projects and just go on comissions, to use my limited free time as efficiently as possible. Which would mean an end for TQFQ and other projects.
So yeah. That's my future. poverty and being forced to another apprentanceship at 32. So that sucks either way.
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