Hey sorry I been away its been really heavy managing alot, I been hanging on threads not trying to do alot but sadly we all know thats not good to do...
in my case I lost alot since 2014, and its been hell trying to recover but in my honest experience been learning from the mistakes has been the only thing thats been keeping me alive and I keep learning alot everyday health/mental wise.
just keep a good eye on you all's health and hobbies and anything that you love be sure not to burn out from over-dedication, as love makes you do crazy things so will your own actions will be intensified.
thats all for now as I am currently trying to finish my massive backlogs amased over the years, irl work has taken my hands away from drawing for too long, I feel its time I try again with the mindset of understanding the passion that comes with art, not just the willpower.
I have a whole list of things im aiming to improve and making this post is part of said list, so ill be giving as much updates on me, my health, and overall mental so I can have you all check on me.
I sadly didn't have close peers, I am a lonelybody except for living with 2 people a good friend from here on IB and my mate, they been helping me process but they need time to reflect just as much as me, and I am terrible at it due to not really having much time to due to crippling depression/ADHD.
I know people probably dont have much great to say about me, my work ethics, my mental crashouts, or really my own productivity, im not scared of any of those things anymore... never really was to begin with as thats what I went through from abuse in my foster family, had bad actors there telling me I wasnt performing enough, but here or there I would be told not to worry about that because eventually time will pass where you will have healed to rise and tackle again...
honestly speaking thats my trauma as well, abandonment... in more ways then one...
so be careful how you present your woes to others... even people you dont know or look up to... I have to learn not to be so sensitive with these things too and press on to be better but honestly, im trying to speak up and say how much pain that causes when I explain in detail whats going on, only to be not taken seriously or to be taken im lazy due to me not working fast enough out of my mental issues, heck if anything I shouldn't even be going that far to be understood. I have had commissions 5 years plus long and still was good friends with them dispite what was going on in my life because I NEVER directed my issues from that, I spoke up and gave what I could to communicate at the time dispite it being hard to express.
okay other then that, just hit me up if you wanna talk, if it take me a bit to respond please give me a bit to respond thank you discord:''galaxyviolet92''
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