There are lots of ways to define such a word whether it be a situation outside of your range of power, A literal ability to do nothing or simply a loss of power. I feel helpless right now.
My mate laying down curled worried and afraid right next to me with me having no ability to make him feel better or to give him the true comfort he needs. His mother is probably going to be refusing the dialysis that could keep her alive. The doctor's have said that if she doesn't do it within 2 weeks she will die. Sabre's mother has a deep fear of needles which is the biggest reason why she doesn't want to do it. Sabre and his sister's don't want to force it upon her but they don't want her to die either.
I know that my last few journals have been the typical ones that one expects to see, but this is serious shit. He is already going to sell some of his things just to try and have the money to get there to see her. I am going to also try and figure out stuff if anything I have that is worthwhile cause i have shit but most of it wouldn't even get a second glance or at least it didn't in the past when i tried to sell it..
With you the people that are reading this if anyone actually gives enough of a damn to even read my stuff anymore maybe if you want you can help. You could donate to either my or his paypal though any funds i get into mine will be sent to his anyways. Or if you prefer a service while i don't think i am all that good i can try and color your pictures for you cheaply priced. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7563217/https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5839553/https://www.furaffinity.net/view/4884643/ being a few examples. I will try to be fast if you take this option.
I just don't know why it seems like things can't just work out right. I mean I try to be a good person he is an amazing person but it just seems like the shit keeps rising and rising. Maybe it has to do with me I could really be cursed. I don't know I just don't know what to do.
paypal infos mine kenai2121[at]yahoo.com his Sabre_Wolf_84[at]yahoo.com
