Good, I guess. I may aswell have 0 "watchers" too, for all that matters.
Guess it's more of a chance for me to write what's on my mind with a bit more freedom.
I have now been alone and isolated enough that it's began to really weight on me, alongside all of the eest of the bullshit.
People have simply stopped calling, or even pretending that I exist at all anymore. And once again, this includes.. everyone that I fucking know (excluding my shrink and parents).
Once again, as soon as my life becomes more difficult and harduous, everyone fucking leaves or hides in fear of me.. because I guess I am the freaggin' boogeyman for this fandom or something.
Today's my father's laser operation for his eye. I'm still worried like hell for him.. but I'll know of his condition afterward only when I'll be awake again.. and that's assuming I'll be able to sleep at all.. (Go go gadget Alprazolam!).
My stress levels have gotten soo bad yesterday that I had another breakdown trying to do something at my computer with my father... he had to leave the room while I was loosing control. I had to lay down for an hour or more just to regain control of myself.
I'm tired now. I'll shall try to rest.
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