You know that feeling where you try really hard to achieve your dreams, try one method then another, just for the people close to you just keeping bashing on your head that you are useless and doesn’t do anything outside of your personal projects?
Since I was little I was hearing this same speech that I am useless, a son of a bitch, a retarded kid because I was not social, I almost even got killed by the rage of someone close to me a couple of times for things that where outside my control.
Now imagine growing up with that, with that chaos, turmoil and void inside your mind but your heart filled with anger and hatred, being betrayed inside your own home, the place where you should be safe.
The result is someone broken, shattered that tries every single day to get better but still keep being bashed and stomped by the same people who only cares when we are not bothering or better yet, when we are following everything they say without questions, black sheep they say.
I'm tired of holding those feelings, I'm tired of pretending it will change, if I don't do anything then nothing will be better.
I've lost count of how many times I almost snapped and did the worst to everyone around me...I don't know why I never snapped before, maybe I'm good deep inside? I don't know, I never hurted anyone on purpose and still I'm seen as a monster.
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13 Apr 2025 05:05 CEST
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