I've been thinking about how to move forward with all things AmorousArtist, still love the ideas, and the final product, but the process, the making, it has become so unfun, and hard, because of my (Undiagnosed, but very apparent) ASD and ADD/ADHD, that actually doing anything AA related, just the thought fills we with dread, and it shouldn't, it never used to.
But between my neurodivergent issues, my perfectionism, and a dash of depression induced malaise and procrastination, I rarely am of the right mood, mind, and health, as well as motivation, to do the things I want to do.
I want to make art, but it's so hard, harder than it ever was before.
I want to tell stories, but that requires making the art.
I want to do so much, but it's evidently not in the cards at the moment, not until I get better.
All that said, I'm not content with giving up, but standard motivators and goals just don't work anymore, be that wanting to feel proud and accomplished, or even just making some money...
So, I have an idea, it's rough, unstructured, and vague, but it might help a bit.
I think I soft-reboot is in order; a lot has changed over the years I've been doing this, there have been ups and downs, friends gained and lost, art that's had to have been altered or achieved, some art I never finished, stuff I had commissioned I can't show, or just never got round to sharing, and the plot has been completely lost, I have a story in my head what's going on in my lil' Ducktales world, but an no point have I been able to actually develop and share it, at best some of you picked up that in this Canon, through some means, Ammy is the Father of Huey, Dewey, and Louie, and that there are also 3 more triplets too, not that they appear much.
And then there are all the OCs of other people...
It's a mess, to say the least, but not unsalvageable.
I can't say yet what I will change, or how, or even when, but I can start with small things.
Part of me literally wants to create a new account, but that could get messy, but I'm also not gonna purge my gallery to a blank canvas and start fresh.
I think a nice solution, when the time is right, might be cut off, a post that says something about it, whatever "it" ends up being.
One thing I really want to do, and maybe you guys could help with this, is simplifying the process to make art.
My fundamentals in art are a bit weak: blocking, posing, and perspective (in characters), lighting, are all very basic, but, there are shortcuts that can be taken, one I've had my eye on for years not is 3D art, be that switching from 2D to 3D, but using shaders and materials to render 3D to look drawn and 2D, or using 3D references as bases to trace from, as they could handle the complex bits, like perspective, lighting, etc, and I'd just have to draw over top.
I'd still need basic silhouette models for even that. My modelling skills might be enough to make it, but I'd still also need good orthographic drawing to use to make the models, and then my own 2D skills get in the way...
You can see the hole I'm in, right?
That also is a loop, a figure eight?
I could probably do it, I could maybe get it to work, but would it be good enough for me, could I muster enough attention span to see it through, would I be happy?
IDK...
But I don't want to keep doing nothing.
I think a place I could start, like I said before, is to reorganise my gallery again, remove or simplify thumbnails, update descriptions, repost any lost art I can, and any unfinished stuff as scraps, but that if I don't restrain myself, and set my own expectations could also backfire.
So, I'll try, in my own time, maybe not today, or even tomorrow, but hopefully soon, start very small, and do even a little of something.
I'll link my Kofi, if anyone is feeling generous, I can't currently offer anything in return other than a thank you message, and truth be told I don't need the money, I get a benefit from the government, but anything extra is appreciated: https://ko-fi.com/ammyduckfield
Thank you all for being here and watching in general though.
