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vinzydesign

Just  A Heart-Felt Post

The way of love and the world at this point lets me down. But that's ok. I will just keep rolling. Do my thing and if he crosses my path again so be it. I've become content to just be what he wants. But if one day he looks back and sees his mistake, Nathan will know. He will remember these eyes, so full of hope and trust. He will remember the softness of my kiss, the feel of my nails on his back, fingers through hair. He will remember the jokes, the laughs, the times I held him when the world was at his heels. He will remember how much love I gave willingly and freely. He will remember the sweet surprises, the times when we just sat together and talked about hope and dreams. And he will have open eyes and remember how I looked when he hurt me over and over and made me cry. He will remember the people holding my hand in the Emergency room, as they detox'ed me enough so I could get help. He will remember that he didn't lift a finger to help. And he will see what I have become.

And it will have been without him that I have become this fighter, this still starry-eyed, hopeful woman who is a hell of a lot wiser. He will know. He will feel regret.

And I forgive him. Because, God's help him, he knows not what he does. He is just a boy, not yet a man.

I am alive. I am trying. I am fighting.

I hope he can see what he has done, is doing, and can see before its too late to save it.
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Added: 6 years, 2 months ago
 
ArielCelestia
6 years, 2 months ago
Oh my! Well, if you need a far-away wolf-swan for anything please let me know. *Offers a warm hug.* Please get well soon as well ^^
vinzydesign
6 years, 2 months ago
*hugs* Thanks. Someone has just broken my heart to the point where I know I have to just stop. Cheating, lying, the whole nine, Nexat Blackflame has pretty much done everything he can to hurt me and I dont think he even knows hes being a jerk.

But I forgive him... Not for him but for me :)
ArielCelestia
6 years, 2 months ago
Sadly all I could ever offer is hugs :( You can probably see that my life is pretty much down the drain right now as well. But Forgiveness is always a good thing. By personal experience I know it's easier to forgive others then it is to forgive oneself. Hehe, sorry if I'm ranting randomly. I will still be here for you dear.
vinzydesign
6 years, 2 months ago
If you feel like chatting i have Skype?
ArielCelestia
6 years, 2 months ago
PM'ed you, so we won't clutter up your journal ^^
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