Wow…
Many many many things have happened.
Truth is I kinda slipped and fell into drawing. I was never enthusiastic about it until I was 12 around early 2016, because I wanted to be a YouTuber and I wanted my own little sidekick character like Jaques from JonTron. So 12 year old me thought “I’ll make a YouTube channel where it’s me reviewing video games with a cat girl animated by me :D”. That never happened. At the same time, I got into Lapfox, I think I was always a furry but never got into the community until I found Lapfox. I found a community to be with, being lost and young back then. I got my first drawing tablet for my 13th birthday, and I felt so powerful. My art looked like horse shit, but it felt good. So I used to post stuff on deviantart. I tried making friends with artists around my age at the time, most of whom were female.
Things got so messy. We were teenage artists together. Allot could go wrong and it did. Some of them still hate me. Surprisingly, one of the artists, who I don’t remember but they remember me, found my drawing I made for ap*s and commented “Paxton?” The name I went by in 2016. As if to say “is that you?”. The person in question says they HATE cub art so I’m not sure how they found that. /:T
I had my first callout post when I was 14 over some petty high school drama, and me discovering my sexuality back then, as is normal for someone that age. It’s a long story.
At one point in 2018 I think we made a truce but then I caught zoophile allegations because I thought feral yiff was hot…which btw it is hot and I really should draw it more XD That and at one point said I was a pedo because they found out I drew cub. I would use that energy to find people abusing *real* children, but I guess the works of fiction are more important to them. Priorities.
All throughout 2018-2020 I was stalked for drawing these things on my old Inkbunny account that’s been long deleted. They attempted contacting my relatives on old ass Facebook of all places. Which was useless because they don’t Facebook anymore and the relatives asked for my side of the story because they know this is a random clout chasing artist from Philadelphia harassing me.
2021 was weird. I didn’t draw too much. I was focused on making music in Audacity (ew). I actually wanted to be a musician before I wanted to be a cub artist. I still do music but much better than my music in 2021. Today my artwork is for business and pleasure, where as my music is just pleasure. I cannot profit off my music. I made a harsh noise project in 2021 that I ended up really not liking and deleting. I didn’t draw too much partly because of that but I was also hiding from said stalker at the time. They’ve since stopped since I found out who they were. Yippeeee.
I didn’t draw much in 2022 either but I started HRT that year so I got the cute little femboy boobs I have now :3 I actually deleted my Bawphomet account because of a relationship I was in. Terrible idea. I’m still friends with him but he wanted to be a famous furry tiktoker and me being a cub artist could severely damage his reputation. So I deleted it with my 250 watchers on there. I still feel bad for leaving.
I nearly quit art in 2023 ended up only making I think 10 drawings that whole year. Which is barely anything compared to previous years. But then later in the year I came back now that I was out of that old relationship and into a new relationship with someone online. It was kinda painful only being able to see her once every 2-3 months but one year ago today I moved in with her ^-^. We actually met on Inkbunny me and her. It feels really surreal still, had I not had a stupid idea as a 12 year old to become a YouTuber I would’ve never moved. I hated living in a place full of alcohol abuse which is why back then when I was only in my teens I would attempt to find online relationship after online relationship in hopes of maybe one day moving out to where they live.
My dream came true and I nearly gave up.
Cheers ~
TL;DR If it weren’t for JonTron of all people, I would not be where I am today <3 lol
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