I hope everyone had a great, or at the very least decent holiday season, and that you all find yourselves in good health and happiness coming into 2025.
Only a handful of you probably knew me back in the very early days of the internet (circa 2001 - 2006), but I used to be very active in the writing/fan-fiction scene, and I even self-published an episodic fiction series (or rather, the first piece of it) in 2012, shortly after exiting college and starting my life as a "real boi". I guess, to put it mildly and as simply as possible, as much as I enjoy what I do for a living, it has been rather soul crushing and some piece of my brain never really took to it all that well. I've often gotten off work feeling resentful toward my job, and the fact that I have to work 40 or more hours a week, and it has resulted in my busying myself in my off duty hours with either mindlessly playing video games, watching movies or TV shows, and generally not giving to many fucks about my life, if I am perfectly honest. It really sucks too because I *should* feel pretty blessed about where I am in life these days even though I really don't, the weight of the world always seemingly pushing down on me, making me feel bad for others who have it worse off, etc. It's just become routine, and way to easy to shrug at the end of my work day, tell myself "I deserve this", and to just do what seemingly makes me happy, or at least happy enough to forget about life for awhile.
Needless to say, it hasn't exactly worked out, as not exercising my favorite creative outlet from my youth has left something of a hole in my heart, and for more than a decade I've felt very guilty for *not* sharing my writing pursuits with the world, since that is what brought me a lot of joy when I was a stupid high school student and young adult. Sure, I've busied myself with other hobbies and interests to pass the time and it has helped, but writing always was that special something in my life that I truly loved to do, even if it can be incredibly satisfying to create something neat while programming or to successfully accomplish some mechanical feat that I've wanted to do for awhile. The tl;dr of it is, I'm getting older, my life is getting busier, so it's time to stop making excuses.
I plan to start off slowly, but the general premise of my plan is that I plan to post a short story involving my own characters, once every month, just to get the juices flowing again and to satisfy that itch that has been missing for way to long. I already have the first two planned out, but at the moment, March is planned to be a "polling" month, where I hope to post a dozen or so concepts/ideas for people to vote on, and then I will write the story that wins. It could be fun, right? I do reserve the right to change these plans though, as my brain can sometimes take me down wild bends and avenues and cease to let me go when it does so--I could very easily be inspired by a particular concept and badly want to write that one, or maybe I'll write two in a month! What a surprise that would be!
In any case, I've been babbling a bit too much--it feels good to get some of this out. Hopefully a few of you will find this interesting enough to read what I put out there, but don't feel too guilty or obligated to do so--I'm mostly doing this for the sake of my sanity.
I love you all and thanks for taking the time to read my little 2025 rant.
PS - I really don't mind creepy comments and stuff related to my characters. If any of them really particularly grab your interest and you want to tell me about it, you're likely to bring a big smile to my face at the very least ;)
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