Sorry I haven't posted a new journal page in over three months. I'm still here and still alive. So far, Halloween was the best since the entire month of October shown nothing but the best horror films and Halloween themed films or just scary films in general that we all know we've grown up with, be it old ones or new ones that are new to us.
Thanksgiving on my end was kind of quiet for me and my mom. Boy did we eat a lot of chicken and pie ( we would've gotten a turkey but we couldn't get a turkey and a chicken is better than nothing )
Now that it's the Christmas season. Hopefully, this year's Christmas season and Christmas itself is better than last year ( if you've read about my last journal that spoke about what went on during last year's Christmas season and Christmas itself, you'll know that it wasn't a good time for me and my mom ) me and my mom did get another booster shot in early June this year so we should be okay till it's early June again.
I will admit that I did go through a brief depressive state as my mom did say she'll one day retire but I guess I got nervous about that is because for one, I know she'll one day retire and if and when that day comes. She'll have more than earned it. But I guess the reasons why I got a bit nervous and depressed about that is because she briefly mentioned how she originally wanted to plan it but the original plan for it doesn't look like it'll work out.
That, and I've come to acknowledge that our luck is often like a rotten egg due to how our lives have been plagued with a string of bad luck here and there that it's become a history of it. The causes of that history of rotten bad luck that we're kind of like magnets for it. That would be ether people who are just so stupid, absent minded, or just being not the right person for the job when we rely on someone for service of any sort, that, and people like that often seem to remember anyone else who isn't us as it feels like they forget about us on purpose or by accident or other times it's because someone or more are so greedily selfish, mean, evil, abusive and narcissistically evil that it feels like just when everything is all nice and decent, one of them type of evil people come along to disrupt our peace, happiness and all that's making our lives happy and good.
So the type of people that are the reasons why I question if we'll be able to adapt or adjust to the day and time, if and when my mom retires, is why I'm nervous and questioning if we'd be able to adapt and adjust to that next new phase of life when the day comes for my mom to one day retire. You have to admit. When you're trying to live a life of good or make sure that your life is alright and trying to make sure you get things done or that you try to have things go smoothly in your life. You encounter people who are trying everything in their power to fuck it up.
So the people in this life or this world we live in that are always fucking everything up for you or anyone you love. You know that the people doing that to you are ether stupid or evil and their actions often are the reason or their excuse to fuck up one's life, to destroy one's tranquility and happiness, people like that are ether incompetent or they just don't care, they're thinking how inconvenient, how annoying, how difficult, how disagreeable, bunch of stupid or evil little bratty people ( be it kids or adults ) thinking that they should live like royalty without doing a second of work and they think they can scheme to scam the poor and needy or anyone they think they can fuck everything up for.
For these types of annoying people that me and my mom have heard about, encountered from time to time, or heard about people we know and love had encountered as well. These stupid and evil people, to them, they think they can say or do anything they want to some poor innocent person just to live a life of royalty. Instead of working hard their whole lives to one day be set for life when they grow old. They want to be wealthy now while they're young to enjoy it because they're too impatient or the said person is just too stupid and incompetent to really help anyone get through a difficult time in their lives or to be next in line to be serviced ( like if you're in line at the doctor's office for an appointment if you need an example ) and everytime you call out these inhuman idiots or inhuman devils of the earth of their true nature or the truth about them. Oh no, they don't like it when someone points out the truth or calls them out on their true nature and they'll go to extreme lengths to get their precious payback in retaliation and they'll go to extremely stubborn ass lengths to get it to satisfy their childishly bruised egos and they often want to make sure they control your emotions by making sure that you're not allowed to get pissed at them, not allowed to get angry or react and they make sure you're not allowed to say or do anything to fight back. Those kinds of people are the ones in this world we need less of or none at all. Those kind of people make good innocent people feel like the world or life is a con game, they're the ones that make you feel like you grow up being told "wait for the sweets and roses" then they hit you with a sharp object to your ear like you're getting a piercing for an earring, they're the type of people that make one feel like you're told grief is something you'll pass through but you know it's bullshit, those kind of people make you feel like you're being told "don't get angry, let it go, it's killing you" but then you know you have two words for that and it's "fuck that" bad people like that, they make one feel like your life is cursed and that anger is the only thing they've left for you in your life, it's enough to make one feel like anger is your refuge, your shield, your birthright. These kinds of people can make you question everything in life or everything about God, especially when you have little to no power to get out of a difficult situation you know you shouldn't be in.
These kinds of people. You wonder why they don't leave you alone or why they follow you everywhere you go in life. Even when you do fight back against them and you finally destroy them. They still don't leave you alone or they want their precious, childish, petty little vengeance over the fact that you stood up for yourself, called them out on their true nature with the truth about who and what they really are. Are they our thorn, our nemesis, is it necessary for them to torment good innocent people till the very end? Do they have no humility, no humanity, no fucking manners? They make you feel like life is a burden, a curse. These kinds of people are the ones that need to have karma strike them hard like lightning ( not literally though, just figuratively ) we all know that we have a right to stand up for ourselves and others we know and love, we have the right to tell these inhuman idiots or these inhuman devils of the earth by telling them off and making sure karma comes to nail them to the wall ( again, figuratively speaking ) we all know bad people like that can go fuck themselves, burn and rot like Charles Manson. Since we have the power to do something about these kinds of people. We all know that we have the power to do something about them and when we finally do something about these bad people. We're going to be alive, having a good old time, living it up, and smiling, because they'll have been dealt with by us or by the justice system who decided to nail them to the wall and getting their stupid or evil asses locked up.
Sorry for the rant but I feel like I needed to let that one out to talk about how some people feel about life when you or anyone you know and love are trying to live life with as little pain as possible or when everything is nice and decent and they feel like some dumbass or evil little demon comes along to destroy that. Don't worry, I'm not ranting about something going on in my life. More like ranting about how good, innocent people feel out there in general that did nothing to deserve the bad situation they're in.
So far, everything on our end is doing alright. But hopefully, this year's Christmas season and Christmas itself is going to be better than it was last year. Apparently, since December started. I've been feeling like listening to soft and inspirational music like if one of them was a song called "Crystals" by Of Monsters and Men. So right now I feel like I'm on top of the world right now. I know one day my mom will retire and she'll have more than earned it. But if and when that day comes. I just hope that we'll be able to adapt and adjust to that phase of life and that no incompetent imbecile asshole or no evil asshole ruins it. If someone tries to ruin that for my mom and me. Then the offender better believe in Jesus.
Also, just so you know. Keep getting a look at these links below.
The links will keep you alerted about a troll I had reported about that's been causing problems for me and others from other websites. I doubt the person has an account on here because the problem didn't happen on here. It happened on a different website. So just letting you know in case you encounter the said troll and if you do, report the troll.
