I'm a few days late this time (my birthday was 11/17, this last sunday) but I figured I should still make a journal relatively close to my birthday. Usually I take this time to reflect on the previous year and give you all some insight into my life.
I'll be honest in saying that 2024 has not been an easy year for me. I've noticed that for some reason all the even numbered years in my life since 2016 haven't been the best and I don't know why. That's not to say that this wasn't a year of enormous growth for me. I finally have a good idea of what I want to do as a job, I deepened a lot of friendships, and I worked through a good amount of mental issues.
For the bad stuff, I worked at a job I absolutely hated, had to be hospitalized due to a medication imbalance (mental health), and the relationship with myself and my family has not been very stable. I do not wish to go into more detail than that, but know that I'm working to try to mend it, it's just that there's quite a few mental blockades among all members of the household.
Additionally I feel like the amount of art I produced this year was not good. Due to MANY bad things happening in the furry/babyfur community this year I lost motivation to draw completely several times, and it's been hard for me to draw anything "big" so to speak (notice how few of my drawings this year have backgrounds, for instance). I know that this is just supposed to be a fun hobby for myself, but at the same time, I can't ignore that I have somewhat of a following on here. I can't say that I'll be better next year in regards to art production, but at the bare minimum I want to upload 12 submissions that are entirely my own in 2025, one per month. This doesn't necessarily mean that I need to draw every month, I could draw 3 times in one month, for instance, just as long as the total is 12 drawings. I do realize that some take more or less effort than others though, so this isn't exactly a hard line I need to cross.
Again, this year was not entirely bad, and I feel like I made a lot of progress in my personal and professional life. I finally got over my fear of getting a paypal account, for one, and now I can actually commission people. My resumé is also finally looking somewhat impressive, and I feel much more confident than I did at this time last year, when I had severe depression while attending college away from home.
A big thank you to all my friends on discord for helping me through the hard times. I won't name names but you know who you are, and I greatly appreciate you being there for me.
I don't know what this next year of my life will hold for me, but I'm going to go into it with a smile.
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