Heya all, Mystic here and it is spooky month. Happy Early Halloween. Time for another update on Art, IRL, and What has been on my mind and at the end open to feedback at the end.
--Art--
Art has still been very slow. I have had some lazy weeks and I couldn't think of ideas to draw. Even the Sawsbuck I did do, at the end, I thought of a better theme and idea plus in the spirit of October. I didn't start a new one so I just left it be. The ideas come to me slowly or I write them down then forget them. I still have some written down but find it very difficult to get to them. I also don't feel the sense of accomplishment, like I completed drawing every Sawsbuck for the seasons but I don't feel.. happy or proud that I finished it. Something lingers in my head that prevents me from feeling happy about it. Regardless, I am still drawing but it is very slow. I think I have a hard time continuously drawing after I finish a drawing.
I recently organized my art by year, cleaning up my pc and such. Makes everything look better and seeing how much I have done in one year.
Writing has been a struggle. I have a story I started in high school and took a long hiatus from it due to some mental stuff. I came back one day and have written some but the more I write, the more I dislike it. I didn't plan it and that is part of the problem, but it is also the mental. I have a little series planned for it but I can't move on to it until I finish the current one, and it has taken longer to finish, heck it is hard to evem write it. I am conflicted to either trash it and start over, or continue it and finish it out. I'm very limited in my options and it drives me crazy.
--IRL--
It feels like I have been lazy this month in everything I do. I have made little mental notes to myself about going out every now and then but I end up just not doing them. I have been inside just laying around, surfing the web, watchingg youtube vids, I haven't done much. Then I feel this nagging that "I should be doing something productive" or "I need to do something, anything." Then I do nothing.
--What's on my mind--
There is something I regret doing and feel like it is too late to do them. Inktober for example, I've done it before and then when seeing others do it, it makes me want to do it, but then I think of what I know will happen. I either forget it, can't think of an idea or, look interest. At first it is like "I want to join them" then turns into "But then I'll become lazy and forget so lets not do it for sanity sake." Then when the event is close to being over, I feel down as I missed out on it. I don't do it outside the months so like a one time event I miss.
I have thought of some really cool ideas then combine story and art and the best part is there little short stores. The same issue still applies which is the will to start it. Some ideas I feel really happy about and that is what I am looking for then when I do them is when I struggle, then take too long and then just shove to the side to be forgotten-ish. I do want to do them, I just need to somehow will it together.
--Feedback--
If you have any questions or feedback you want to ask me feel free, I am open to anything. Thank you for your time to read this update. Have a nice day.
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