Heya Mystic here, another month another check in journal about the usual Art, IRL, and What's on my mind, and the feedback
--Art--
Art in general has been slow and when I try to to draw I get stuck and then stop because I don't know what to draw. More like I have the idea but I can't get it on paper or I don't find references and I take too long looking when I should be drawing more. I don't have the balance in drawing because I draw less and I don't know what to draw, either a quick draw/sketch or a full art piece.
I did write a story again and I consider it a win. I write with a simple theme in mind and then "free write" let my fingers and mind take the story away. Now it does present a downside and a weakness of mine which is a plot or story flow so maybe something doesn't make sense or some things don't line up but I do editting at the very least. But I do this to get back into the basic which is just writing.
--IRL--
Nothing major going on irl, no plans or anything just being at home and chilling. I've been not playing too much like my usual Minecraft or Pokemon. In minecraft I haven't played much which is the same reason as my artist side, building big builds and fearing that they don't look good. Also have bad luck looking more armor trims even though I love those so much. I built a Pokemon VGC team fro Reg H, but then I feel like Kieran from the dlc, I am afraid of losing too much then I lose the fun aspect of it and it is my one oppertunity to play vgc without legendaries or paradoxs.
--On my mind--
I've been scrolling twitter and found some really cool Capricorn ocs and I think that is what my sona is missing. It is missing the "Capricorn" side, Mountain Goat/Sea Goat, that sort of thing. I still want to incoorerate the "Chinese New Year" zodiac, I like the tail idea, but I probably would have to make it a second head or something. Also changing fur colors... so really a sona redesign.
I can not keep my mouth shut and suprise people with art. I have the idea but I keep relaying it to others I chat with instead of just drawing it and showing it. I don't trust myself alone and need other input, but I am th eone drawing it so why can't I be happy with it, so many questions unanswered.
Sometimes I think about these check in's and wonder if I am doing the right thing or not. It is over the littlest things like the topics I talk about or I think really hard about what I say to not make it too personal or anything. I don't know if "want" to keep doing this or really I just do it just because without thinking, than later it hits me "do I really need to do this?"
--Feedback--
Feel free to ask any questions you have, thank you for reading have a good day.
(Side note, forgot to upload this here)
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