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NeiNing

Friday the 13th

Is usually seen as bad omen day or something similar. But to me this is special day this year - since it's my birthday :D 38 years! Wow! I wanted to create something for my birthday but with diagnosed Autism and ADHD... Nope. My focus and motivation is basically on the level zero. Has been for a VERY long time.

But despite this I WILL TRY to make myself chicken pie today. I normally bake a cake but this year I was lazy and bought frozen cake, ahah! I have never done chicken pie (not a thing in Finland) so I keep my fingers crossed I can make it without it failing miserably :'D

Anyway, also sorry for not being active. I just honestly have zero energy or motivation and focus to do much anything in these days. Tho my neighbor also suggested I still might suffer from depression since Verti's death (it becomes a year of his passing on September 21th). But what I also know autism can cause depression but medicines won't work on this depression (I've tried, not working for me).

Yeah, I talk about nonsense and off-topic things... :'D
Anyway, happy birthday to me! And if anyone else is having birthday today too: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you as well! Let's celebrate together! :D Even if it would be eating cake alone at home!
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Added: 4 months ago
 
HermitGirl
4 months ago
Happy birthday <3<3
NeiNing
4 months ago
Thank you, darling! :D <3
bbbuuu
4 months ago
Happy Birthday to you!
NeiNing
4 months ago
Awh, thank you so much, dear :D
CornBeanSoup
4 months ago
Happy bday Nei! :D
NeiNing
4 months ago
Thank you so much :D
TheAtomicDog
4 months ago
Well then! And looms ever closer the big Four-oh!
And Our Host is correct to NOT force creativity. It will return when it is ready.
Happy birthday!
NeiNing
4 months ago
Sure do! I'm actually pretty excited about turning 40! :D Can't wait, ahah! It seems my creativity has "died" when it comes on trying to do anything TMNT related. I have been able to draw Gan Ning from Dynasty Warriors series recently and drawing him has make me so much more happier! But yeah, I would like to be able to draw some TMNT stuff too, especially when I have little comic idea for the Halloween.

Thank you so much! :D
LeonEgyxos55
4 months ago
Happy birthday. I have ADHD & Asperger’s syndrome too so it is not that bad & know that there are others out there that r in ur boat…..so to speak. Anyway as a 35 yr old I find there r things that r very hard for me (driving/cooking) but there r other things that I find easier than most (knowledge of supernatural/cross stitching), but all in all I try to make the most of it & ask for help if I need it…..even if I don’t want to….because it helps. Just knowing the fact that there r people that believe in me/supportive of me helps me get through the tough dark times.
NeiNing
4 months ago
Thank you! I have met some people with (and without) diagnosed autism and talking with them has been more or less helpful, especially in those cases where the symptoms between us have been perfect match. I have A LOT of things which are difficult for me to. I don't want to go out and be around people so I'm at home pretty much 24/7. Going to buy food is always pain in the ass. I can walk back and forth between the shelves in food market for 2 hours, still not knowing what I would like to eat. My body feels hunger but I have zero appetite or desire to eat anything. I have zero energy to cook, clean, do dishes, go out to pick up a mail, take out the trash, brush teeth etc. Everything from "normal person's day" tasks are just no to me. All what I can, literally, do is to wake up late in afternoon, get my ass off on the bed and drag it on the couch, sit on couch 12-16h and then drag myself back to bedroom to sleep 10-12h. Then the same thing starts all over again.

Tho, I have start to get back on drawing my favorite male character (Gan Ning) so it has cheer me up some but that's all. I like paranormal stuffs and I used to watch / listen / follow some Youtube channels actively daily but I haven't done even that anymore in months. I either focus with 100% or not at all. There, sadly, is no middle road to me (like 50% focus). Also no people who I could ask help from. Mom has her physical limitations, father doesn't give a fuck, brother lives in another country and sis lives 5h train trip away / another side of the country. No friends or any contacts with the rest of the family. Always been isolated. But I manage since I know I would be heck tired, exhausted and pissed if I would have another human company.

Thank you for your words, tho! I appreciate them! :)
LeonEgyxos55
4 months ago
Ur welcome
Galizia
3 months, 2 weeks ago
πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‰happy birthday!!!πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‚ and may all the bad things in your life disappear like smoke in the wind!, may the good multiply like flowers in spring. May your wishes come true and may you always find happiness along the way . Enjoy this special day and may your life be full of wonderful moments🌟✨
NeiNing
3 months, 1 week ago
You always write me so beautiful messages and wishes that you make me cry! QAQ <3 But thank you so, so much! My birthday was nice and I'm currently visiting my sis. I did celebrate my late birthday with her as well with tiny box of 2 blueberry cheesecake pieces, home made Japanese food and some grape soda :3
riverhayashi
3 months, 1 week ago
Oh wow happy birthday! May the next year be kinder to you :D
NeiNing
3 months, 1 week ago
Thank you so much! I truly hope so as well :D
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