So I had this revelation that perhaps what I need is not a traditional relationship, but rather something in the vein of a master/pet dynamic.
This desire can easily be filled with online role-play, but ultimately, I am wanting MUCH more than that. I want something real and local. And well, NOW. Well, NOW not meaning this actual moment, but like in the next day or so.
Of course what I want and what I get are two totally different things.
So I started to look for locals on Fetlife and F-list. But it was only today that I thought I'd say somethign here. I mean, what can it hurt, really?