Life Issues

Look I need to make money man, I having trouble finding a job that I can fit in, I'm still stuck in this stupid job program
(which I'm getting really tired of it), and some Iife issues and I'm afraid about my future is gonna be like. While I haven't gotten job I first thought doing art commissions would be like my own home business and everyone that like my art would be interested on commissioning, but since I opened up the commissions I RARELY got any attention.

Like hell, I'm the only one in my god damn family is very autistic. I mean I'm not like my family, they got jobs so easily awhile I'm stuck doing what I'm regular do, always being weird and random and do some childish things sometimes. My siblings got everything they had that I don't and it's not fair...

I know that sounded like jealously, but I'm not really...

*sigh*

I afraid about my future...sometimes I wish that wasn't born with autism... if I wasn't born with autism maybe my life would've been better...

I know that some of you guys might have autism and probably know how it feels but that's not enough to make it feel better.

No one understands how I feel and you really don't understand how I feel.

I like making art and it's my favorite hobby, I just wanted to show everyone how special that I'm really am.

But most people didn't care about my struggle...

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Added:	1 year, 3 months ago 04 Jun 2024 14:56 CEST

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StarBorne

1 year, 3 months ago

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I feel that. I wish I wasn't born the way I am as well. I procrastinated so much since graduation that I missed out on improving my art, getting to drive, to work, and even to hit up College. I feel alone but in real life and online because I cannot be social for the life of me (but mostly because I don't have a reason to). I can't think before I act, which made me lose a lot of friends and possible associates before we get to that point. I'm always thinking when I walk, that I'm doing much better than I am now, or that I've been doing well from the very start, when I could've done that three years ago.

I'm over here making up for it while regretting everything I've ever done. My other relatives and online friends got it good, I don't. I won't feel jealously over it because I'm well on my way to getting to their level, but I still can't help but feel I should've been there from the jump.

It sucks with the level of autism I've got, but with all the documentaries on lolcows and outright terrible people I've watched on YT as of late, I'm sorta better off the way I am now. Because I could've gotten it worse.

It'll get better in time, big man, just gotta have hope. Like I do.

Rokku1994

1 year, 3 months ago

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As someone getting their paycheck from the government and autistic I fully understand your plight, dude.
I got siblings able to get jobs and I don't. I sometimes wonder what my future will be like as well...

SexyBigEars69

1 year, 1 month ago

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Well, art is a very oversaturated market. The barrier to entry is very low. If you want people to engage with your art, and score commissions, you'll gonna need to raise the barrier of entry to your competitors.

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