Hello.. so a while ago I saw that my X/Twitter was suspended... I have no idea why, but I think I know who might be behind it as I know they use lots of alts and have been against me for the longest time... I feel shocked and terrified, as If I didn't go through enough horrible stuff already and as if I'm not trying to deal with more than enough (and failing), this just gets thrown on top of everything. It is my second biggest platform and definitely one of the most important ones so this is a huge loss, not to even mention that everyone I followed and liked is now gone..
Last 2 days I was starting to do a little better because I was doing progress on art and getting back into it, I was finishing the Monthly Exclusive Sketch #3.. then I took a little break and I see that... just completely ruined mood for the rest of the day and I will have to deal with this at least for some time, god why can't I ever catch a break..
I guess the only good thing about this is that, I'm so tired of all the trauma and horrible feelings that I almost can't feel anything after the shock wears off, I'm pretty sure I'm starting to disassociate from this stuff in an attempt to save myself from more damage. I often feel dizzy and not like myself.. But, I'm still here, maybe things will get better but I try to not rely on it anymore, it usually leads to more disappointment for me..
The good news is that Monthly Exclusive Sketch #3 is just around the corner and I will be posting in a bit after this message, hope you will like it.. Thank you for reading, being here, supporting and following, I appreciate every single one of you and all your support.
I can deal with that, there will always be some bad people, but getting banned over nothing and getting no notification or response just shows how much the platform cares.. sad.
I can deal with that, there will always be some bad people, but getting banned over nothing and gett
