Do you remember why you are here? Every single decision you make will alter your future in ways you cannot even imagine. Your control over the future is so much more insignificant than any of us realize.
However… insignificant it may be, but it is not nonexistent. It is up to you to exercise what little control you have and bend your life to your will. If your will is strong enough, that insignificance will diminish accordingly.
Hey I get it. We all get down. We all get hopeless. And sometimes we make a mistake so profound, that your future may never recover. You may not even realize you made that mistake until it is too late!
I am the same way. Today is the day. The day that I have survived a full decade of living life, the past, present, future… all of it from a decision so benign, so minor… and yet it is the reason I am here today.
It shone a light so bright into my eyes that it blinded me. It enraptured me. It took control of my will and made me stumble towards a doomed future. So when that light was finally turned off… Everything was dark. Everything seemed so far away.
I searched blindly for years for that light to come back again. I destroyed my life, piece by piece because that was the future that I had chosen. I chose what I wanted, and I sought to claim it, no matter the cost.
A mistake made so profound, that it instigated a chain that I was destined to be shackled to. An unbreakable and uncontrollable path all the while time marched ever onwards without restraint or mercy.
And when the winds blew, they held me back. When the water flowed, it carried me as it willed. When the lightning flashed, the briefness of its light only blinded me more. When the snow fell, it froze me in its tracks.
When the earth moved, it weighed me down. When the fires burned… I burned my bridges with it. All that was left was the light and the dark. And how it seemed what little light I saw was fading away.
The light I needed. What I wished for. What had blinded me in the first place is what I thought I wanted. What I needed. The first link in the chain. The flap of the Butterfly’s wings, throwing me into Chaos.
The light of the halos of those who I thought would save me from the darkness, only to be replaced by the demons that hid underneath angelic costumes… twice defied my will. And thus, I weaken.
And so here I stand, no longer sure of what I wish for. That light is gone. And it has been gone for quite some time now. Who am I? What do I want? What do I live for? Why am I here? Why… am I here?
That question is the one to answer. Why am I here? Why are any of us here? Why are YOU here? What is your reason? What is your light? Will you let it blind you as it did me? Or will you let it guide you to your future?
Oh? Do you claim to have no light? Just as I have? Perhaps the answer we seek lies within us all. The truth being told, life has no meaning at all. It never has. And it never will. We have no purpose in this world.
But do not despair! Do not weep! For that is… paradoxically so… what makes life good in the first place. After all… if there is no purpose or reason… then it falls to us to grant that reason!
We ourselves decide that path. And though it may be uncontrollable, as I said, it is not completely so! So… when you tell me, when I tell myself that there is no purpose to why I am here…
All I can say is… Be your own light. Guide yourself to what you wish. Redeem the future that was stolen from you.
That light. As hackneyed as it may be to say… It does truly come from within.
So Photon, my dear friend… what say you we abolish the darkness we have surrounded ourselves by? And be the light that we have been searching… so very long for? What do you say to the proposition…
…of remembering why we are here…?
The future awaits your call…
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