Hey everyone
Ugh, I'll just get right to it, I'm sure some of you have probably noticed that I haven't been really posting anything new in a while, and it's even worse than I thought because I just checked my last piece of art I posted here that was my own stuff, and it was back in April... which is just absurd for me, for years I have always at least posted one pic a month, which I know it's not really a big deal and I know a lot of you will tell me no pressure and to take my time, but for me, going this long without posting anything is kind of bad, and to be honest, it really hurts my motivation even more, especially when I have so many art projects that are piling up and I can't keep up with them... I just feel like I'm getting slower and slower or something... I dunno.
But let me try to explain why things are kinda slow at the moment, these last two months have been very stressful, and pretty chaotic...
For one thing, only a few of you know this, but about two months ago I decided that it was time to finally get a new job, and for two months I've been trying to get hired at this place that pays pretty decent, it's one of the better jobs around my area and I've heard a lot of good things about the place, they give a lot of bonus checks as well, and it's the kind of place you can actually make a career out of. But in my experience, so far it has been really difficult trying to get on full time. I started out as a temp, but now I finally got the word last Friday that they were gonna hire me, but the hiring process is kind of long and takes a couple of weeks to complete, so as of right now I'm still in the process of trying to get hired in. Not to mention, this place is huge, and it's a lot to take in, and I've been pretty stressed trying to adjust to all this.
And this next part is kind of small, but it's still something that I need to mention before I get to the last part...
So we have this big tree that's in our backyard, and it's been there since I was born, and it was originally planted too close to the house, and it's been causing a lot of problems for a few years now, we have been planning to cut it down, but it's pretty expensive to do that, but now that I have this new job we should be able to do it next month I hope. But anyway, last week a huge branch of the tree broke off and hit our deck, puncturing a hole in the deck... it literally went through the deck, and it also damaged part of the gutter... I'm just glad our cat was not outside that night, because she does like to sleep on that deck a lot, and that big tree branch could have come down on her... so I am very thankful she was in the house that night. It took us a few hours to clear it off the deck and clean everything up, but that tree has to come down, because this has happened twice now, and next time a branch breaks off it could hit the house, so that was the last straw.
And now onto the last thing, and this is definitely the most stressful part...
So to put it simply, my sister has been in a pretty bad relationship for the last few years, and this year things have really gotten worse for her, the guy she was with is very mentally unstable, and I won't go into too much detail, but to give you an idea of what he is like I will mention that he suffers with delusional thoughts, and he believes his own lies as well as believes things that are not true. And for the last two years or so he has been accusing me and my whole family of all kinds of nonsense, and it was getting so bad that he wasn't letting her go anywhere or do anything unless he was with her at all times, he wouldn't even let her be with her own family unless he was there, literally taking her freedom away... so I'm sure you pretty much get the idea and can understand why she left him.
Thankfully she finally got out of this relationship on the 4th of July, but she had to move back in with me, my dad, and brother again, which is fine, but she also has a male cat that she brought with her, and we have a female cat that lives with us already, and so far the two cats are not getting along at all, we have to keep them separated for now, but we are hoping they can get along eventually and be okay living here, but I dunno if it's gonna work or not... it's just such a mess.
But yeah, all this stuff has just been really affecting my mood, and doing art has not been great lately, I'm really struggling just to get anything done. To be honest, I probably have close to 30 or so pics that are sketched up, but it's the outlining and coloring that I'm struggling with... I am trying to relax at night and when I do get some time to work on art I will try to color stuff, but even then I find myself struggling to focus on stuff, I seem to wanna start chatting with people, or watching youtube vids or streams, basically everything except work on art :P
I dunno, I just wanted to give everyone a heads up on what's going on with me because I know some of you have been messaging me asking for commissions, and I know I have a lot of people on my waiting list, but at the moment I just can not do any comms, I probably won't be able to do any comms until things settle down a bit, and I'd really like to get some of these personal art projects done as well, some of them have been sketched up since last year o.O
And lastly, I just wanna say thanks to everyone that still supports me and my art, it really does mean a lot and I will try to post some new things soon, but I may not be as fast at posting stuff as I used to be :P
