Sooo It's been like 8 months since I last uploaded anything art related- and I'm sure that might be upsetting another hedgy I know.. I'm getting to it Zaiks! I promise! D8
All in all just been under a lotta stress these past few months, I know the last thing I posted was another journal entry that wasn't exactly.. Kosher- aaaand things haven't exactly been much better since then other than I'm on speaking terms with the 'Queen of Dragons' once more, she's had a few more medical issues of her own pop up and being the loving daughter that I am.. I can't say that more sarcastically.. I have really just let it all go and buckled down an am helping the best I can. If I really need to bitch and complain then I can vent here I guess.
Buuut yeah so regardless of all that it's just been one low blow after another and it's kinda just left me just not motivated to really do anything honestly, I mean I'm no artist so what do you care if I upload my commissions or not. XD
I just.. I don't know.. I'm being real here, I'm not in character or some silly shit like that, you're kinda getting my raw and unfiltered emotion. I'm tired. It's not even summer yet as of writing and it's already blistering hot where I work. I want to be more active with my friends, my family (whats left of it) and those closest to me but I'm not just feeling motivated anymore. A lot of it's depression, I know but it's not like I can take a pill and fix all that and make it go away ((So update mid writing- I checked and there is indeed pills I can take for depression, that was silly of me to think that there wasn't. gonna just let the stupidity stay there though)) and it just seems to keep getting worse. I don't know how else to put it. Worse is the worst way I can put it.
I'm rambling I know- but it's better here than talking to myself like a crazy person. It's 1:30 AM as I write this.. I'm tired, I'm gonna go to bed. But before I go I guess what I want to do is say that I am at least going to try and pull myself out of this.
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