I intend to post a lot of work on a regular basis that ranges from all over the spectrum of erotic content. I express myself in this way not only because these are things I fantasize about and wish to see depicted in fiction but to demonstrate to others who may hate themselves that you can get over it and move on with life. In fact feeling ashamed of your fantasies only make them worse and more extreme as time goes on. Religious guilt is a good study for that.
This all needs to be said cause I can’t imagine I’m the only one that thinks this. Like many here into cub, shota, loli, feral, it’s deep rooted in past trauma. For me it was a molestation in the 80s and with that being my only experience for the first 20 years of life it became the fantasy in my teen years and never went away paired with a lot of escapism involving childhood cartoon characters, and some recent ones too.
The thing that boggles me as I hit late middle age is by all accounts you’d think people like us would be the most likely to go for the “real thing” that the 2d and 3d stuff in whatever form won’t be enough and as if to suggest a normal cis straight person would eventually rape if they don’t get sex, we to would somehow have a growing urge to pursue Human children.
The things I draw and express are not a “substitute” it’s not a release or holding some demon ay bay. I emphasize it’s for the very reasons stated earlier. If for whatever reason fictional depictions of illegal acts were rendered illegal across the board, there is still no desire to obtain the “real” thing which goes beyond the mere law.
There is no testing of myself looking at normal kids or any variation of such nonsense. Simply put it, no real underage person wants to do the things we depict in these drawings, role plays etc. with older people and there is not even a question to consider involving real pictures/video since that only encourages more violations to happen to real people and promotes a market trade.
There are adults that would justify such a move on a real child, and no drawing is going to put that desire in them and with or without they would do it regardless since rape is not just about attraction. and I’m just getting a grip on that irony right now probably because I’m in my later years and according to the detractors and judges that come at us directly and indirectly we would be the ones to most likely justify it despite how much of a violation it is, despite the shame and anguish we felt when it happened to us.
And some say depicting such fantasies in anyway is some how equivalent while never acknowledging the double standard involving violence. In the movies you can cut off a breast but you can’t kiss it. Or the other approach is that it can be used to groom or send someone down that path. Well no one can use fictional violence in media to justify or tie their reason for such acts why would that same apply to fictional sex? You can’t make an argument for something based on made up shit, no one is going to be convinced by “well I saw a drawing of Bluey getting a blowy so I thought it was ok.” Far as the grooming possibility, that existed long before porno mags and porno mags were used for such things long before the internet went mainstream.
There are no concerns over my self control, or violating someone’s trust to commit a destructive act to obtain some brief gratification, cause the desire is not there despite the things I fantasize about (which does NOT include some potential victim mind you) and draw. Yet here we are all the time seeing people who claim to care about family, and children; getting arrested for violating them. Priest, republicans in favor of keeping child marriages legal in mostly southern states. Lots of conservatives trying to take queer rights away. It's like they feel the need to overcompensate for some flaw they have within themselves. Then there is this wave of hate against trans people while being the most searched porn in the states passing anti trans laws. Yet somehow people like us are dangerous over some drawings we make or commission? We're the ticking time bombs?
The ticking time bombs are the ones in denial of themselves. Who have yet to acknowledge the type of person they are has nothing to do with "what" but "who" There will never be a day where cp is normalized, there exist no argument for it. Though the ones who promote bigotry and assumptions of one's character based on how they express themselves through art or role play in the bedroom with consenting adult human animals seem to think there is, makes ya think.
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