My grandad passed away on Friday night, he was diagnosed with cancer back in December and choose not to get it treated nor ask the doctors how much time he was expected because he just wanted to pass on peacefully at his own home. This past Friday he got that wish, dying peacefully in his sleep surrounded by his loved ones, as much as it saddens me that I didn't get to see hi much this last month, I feel like a failure for not trying to do more for him it just brings me great solace that he managed to pass on the way he wanted, and for that I am grateful.
Thank you Grandad. Thank you for always being there for us when me and my siblings were kids, never forgetting a birthday or christmas, always sending me a card and me getting mad for you sending me money because a man of your age really shouldn't. Thank you for always being the life of the party at dinners, wearing that silly toupee to make me and my siblings laugh and pretend you never wore it. Thank you so much for helping me and my siblings with moving into our own places to start our own lives. Thank you for letting me stop by and check on you in these last several months and just letting me help you.
I willl miss you Grandad, we may have not been the closest but you left a big impact on my life and from your last month I will take what I have learnt from you and to live my life the way I want to, no matter how short or long it maybe I shouldn't live life to just please others but to be true to myself.
Thank you Grandad, you will be missed.
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Not exactly the post I wanted to make for the start of the year but I had to get it off my chest, I have had a ridiculously rough weak dealing with my mental and physical health, trying to keep motivated and fight through it, feeling like theres no way out and having dark thoughts, but a death in the family really helps put things in perspective and you realise how important life can be.
I will keep this short and sweet but just know I am doing better than I did, still got a long way to go and will keep you lot posted about what I plan to do next. I have a new project I have not felt this fired up to do in a long ass time and will be changing what I am doing from here on out.
So to wrap this up, thank you for reading this. Please take care of yourselves and those who are close to you, be true to yourselves and remember no matter how little you may think of yourself you will always matter.
Take care now...
- LNO
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