This marks the second night in a row of tossing and turning and getting no real sleep.
I get maybe two hours before waking up and being unable to go back to bed no matter how hard I try. I blame this on two things. One is the heat, as I've never, ever been able to sleep during especially hot nights. It's the humidity. During my vacation from work, I got to enjoy several days without a high humidity, and as such the temperatures of 23°C (73.4°F) more or less were bearable, and it really didn't feel all that hot. Right now it's 25°C (77°F), but the insane humidity due to thunderstorms that have been called for all week (but never actually arriving), it feels like 33°C (91.4°F!).
I'm hoping to have a nap this afternoon... but assuming the thunderstorms still never arrive, the temperature is supposed to spike up to feeling like 39°C (102.2°F). I'll NEVER get to sleep in that.
The second reason is my mind. My mind is racing. It's a problem I had way back when in my early years of elementary school where I wouldn't be able to simply shut it off and get some rest. So much thinking, seemingly about nothing, kept me up so late I was constantly falling asleep in class. I was put on sleeping pills that I eventually worked myself off of.
God I wish I still had those. I obviously still have the same problem. Most nights it's not present, but there are some nights, like tonight and last night, that are just utter torture because of my plagued insomnia.
Opening my window does nothing. Having both my ceiling fan and standing fan on all day long does nothing. Over the counter Sleep-eze® extra-strength nighttime sleep aids do nothing...
All winter, I couldn't wait for summer to come. Now that it's here, I can't wait for autumn.
... God, someone save me. D:
6 years, 7 months ago
23 Jul 2012 12:53 CEST