Soo this journal may sound a bit rambly but this is a subject I've been thinking about for a long, long time and I think I may have finally cracked the code, so here goes:
I first conceptualized Petal circa late 2016 / early 2017, and at the time she was meant to represent my little / DDLG / age regression side, which was something very new to me at the time and something I held very dear for a number of personal reasons. I knew that if I created a fursona it would have to be a cub because that's how I felt the most comfortable representing myself in digital space.
In the years since, Petal has certainly evolved as a character. First conceptualized as a young scamp from the country who wants to seek adventure, to becoming a very promiscuous exhibitionist, with a few stops along the way, I look back and realize that Petal never had much of a consistent personality displayed in the art aside from simply being sexual. Of course in my mind I know Petal's personality, but I feel that I've failed to truly represent those traits in her art with the exception of a few notable pieces here and there.
In recent years, I've felt a stark disconnect growing between the 'real' me and Petal - One that may correspond with a simultaneous disconnect between myself and my little side - something I've yearned to fix for a while now. And due to my financial struggles that have been especially tough this year, as well as moving across the country and starting a new life, I haven't been able to commission nearly as much art this year as I would have liked.
This, however, has allowed me to take a step back and really analyze what's wrong with Petal in my eyes, what needs to be adjusted and how I can go about making those changes. I've also been able to ask myself what it is I want Petal to become in the future, what I want to do with her character etc.
I've decided that Petal needs a real reboot, a "rebrand" if you will. A deliberate effort to portray her personality in the artwork moving forward, and not just commissioning generic smut every time I get a paycheck. This is what I have decided:
- For the near future, I'm going to hold off on commissioning any more NSFW content, with some possible exceptions for ecchi / teasing artwork if it fits the theme and personality of the piece. I have a huge NSFW project planned, but I'm going to hold off on that for a while until the timing feels right (as well as finances have improved). I'll come back strong, but it'll take some time ;)
- I'm going to age Petal up by a year. This is not something I ever thought I would do for her, but it feels right as well as symbolic. A transformation in her character, marked by a slight increase in maturity, plus as I've grown older I feel like my distant little side has "gotten older" as well, so hopefully this will help remedy that situation somewhat.
- A slight change in her appearance. Nothing major, primarily a slight hairstyle change and emphasizing one other trait of hers, as well as outfits. But I feel this will be a better fit for how I want Petal to appear.
And yeah. If you're still reading this, thank you for dealing with my ranting. This thought process has been months if not years in the making, and will go a long way in helping me connect with my 'sona once again. \o/
P.S. if anyone feels like making any cheesy fake birthday cards for Petal being aged up (you can make them digitally on some creator websites) I'll collect them between now and my actual birthday and maybe make a collage of them all and post them on my birthday? (November 5th is the actual thing so 3 months from today) Idk just an idea, if anyone actually wants to participate you can send them via private message here on InkBunny or on Telegram (I don't accept random discord friend requests, sorry)
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05 Aug 2022 19:30 CEST
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