has recently passed away today due to an accident and as we're all mourning I feel I cannot go on living happily as one of my ultimate fears has come true, and a dream has forever been crushed. Krezz Is one of the most Important people In my life how he has affected my life.
How I knew Krezz Is a long story, many years ago while I was curious about certain things In the furry fandom I was curious about cub and eventually found leaks of Cub Blush, they were Interesting comics and yet Krezz's unique style really caught my attention. I'd occasionally stumble upon other leaks of his comics and became quite a fan too afraid to approach him or his community since I was quite shy at the time for years until 2020 I started attending his streams.
It was thanks to Krezz I got Into cub and slowly started entering the cub community which has become the best community I have ever became a part of. It's been the most friendly, least hostile and most accepting community I have seen In the furry fandom, or any community at all. I made plenty of friends who actually care about each others wellbeing, met some great artists of different skills and eventually got part of my dream fulfilled when Scotty paid for a Sketch of my Lizard. I had never been happy In such a long time ever since a falling out with a friend who wanted a fresh start by cutting ties to everyone for his job which had left an empty void Inside of me that made me suicidal. Every Wednesday and Saturday I looked forward to your streams even when I can't stay awake to fully enjoy the process and hang out with everyone.
Now about the dream, It was my dream to get my Lizard to cameo/appear In School Days eventually, at least hoping It could happen when I could finally start commissioning artists.(I have a very complex reason to why I can't commission artists), and one of my ultimate fears was for Krezz to pass away before I could really thank him with steady commissions and support.
I'm sorry Krezz, but I can't be stream. The moment I heard of your Death from Scotty I was I broke down In a way I never had before as a large part of me died. Heart broken, I was unable to pull myself together from the news and started downing most of my alcohol Immediately hoping to help me cope, and eventually join you soon. I was crying and ranting for over two hours before I tried to sleep It off but unfortunately It was only a two hour sleep, and I was bleeding from some broken glass. Krezz was still on my mind, and how I could never do Krezz justice by creating/doing something In his memory. I am really sorry Krezz because no matter how hard I try or do It will never be enough and what you deserve for all the, joy and Inspiration you had brought everyone. I'm sorry Krezz but I don't think I'll have the strength to move on, or continue, or start doing anything I used to again. I hope to wake up one day and all this would have just been a nightmare, but this Is unfortunately a reality I don't want to be part of anymore but I don't want to cause anyone even more pain.
take some time to recover. We will all miss krezz but you should get more sleep and try to keep going on your own two feet. we lost a great friend, but life must go on, and so must you
take some time to recover. We will all miss krezz but you should get more sleep and try to keep goin
I just can't move on easily, I'm unable to do anything to be at peace.with nothing I can do to honour his memory that will be great enough to do so. Death Is the beginning usually but for me, his death Is the end. All I done Is sleep cry and try to keep It together. IPart of me Is clinging on to the hope he's still alive and the news of his death was just some misunderstanding or this Is a very bad nightmare I can't wake up from.
I just can't move on easily, I'm unable to do anything to be at peace.with nothing I can do to honou
Even with time, I'll never bounce back after this completely, and then I'll relapse and break down again. I went through almost a year sufferin heartbreak from my ex dumped me and It almost ended fatally three times with two on ond ay. But Krezz Is diffirent, and I'm also scared of what happens If I don't move on, or If I relapse. I never got that drunk before.
Even with any support for manyone, I'll be stuck missing a vital part of me that kept me clinging to life, I'm really scared.of the future.
Even with time, I'll never bounce back after this completely, and then I'll relapse and break down a
I'm so sorry to hear Krezz passed and that it's affected you so hard. I didn't know him personally, but I always found his stuff was cute, cheerful and often made me smile.
You say that you don't think anything you can do will be enough to honour his memory, though. That's just not true, you miss him, you remember him fondly. That's all that anyone can really ask for.
Give yourself time, you'll be sad when you remember him, but be glad he was a friend :) And with time, you'll just remember him with a smile first.
I'm so sorry to hear Krezz passed and that it's affected you so hard. I didn't know him personally,
