That I don't feel lately very good morally, I'm living some bad times here, each day that passes I have less and less free time, due family and job.
I'm not gonna enter in much details, but my job leaves me very exahusted and I barely wanna do anything else than just sleep or play a game ocassionaly (that if my parents leave me and don't ask me to do chores and stuff), my time of a content creator ended up some years ago when my job started to be more demanding, and sadly I can't really get a better one due the fact all of them are even worse than the one I am right now, and throwing off the bonus I have here for all the years I was working in my current one is stupid.
I just got aware that, to be a good artist and improve your art skills, you need to make it your job, or just be jobless, all in all, you get burned from it, or you die of hunger.
In my case, I need a secure and constant income to live, so, I can't leave my job to do art and live from it, the bad thing is that when I have free time, I relate drawing with job, and that doens't help me too much, also being a fan of videogames doesn't help one bit on these times with the tsunamy of good titles that are coming.
I'm kinda depressed, and that made me do a big clean up of my social medias, and ended up deleting most of my friend list from Discord, if you're one of them, I'm so sorry, is not your fault, I just... need some time to be alone, like a restart.
It really hurt me to delete some people, cool artists and people that I chat and have some good time with, but I feel this was kind of necessary for me right now, when I feel better, I will try to retake all my peps, so, again, don't feel offended or mad with me if you're one of the ones who have been deleted.
I'm going to try to draw some more, I'm not sure how is going to be or if I was gonna be able to make something decent, but I'm gonna give it a try, I barelly do any art lately, and that's burning me from the inside little by little, and I have the need to change that.
For those people who keep asking me about Project X... I'm gonna be honest, is time to move on, it was a great experience, and it was fun, but the program is already very old, is an issue to code and do all the stuff for it, all the people who was involved to do it, is busy right now, we all grow up and we aren't teens anymore with spare time to waste, so don't expect much more from it.
That's all for now, loves ya all <3
