so in w months i had planned on making a journal and had planned to go on about how happy i was to be free from that asshole who used me and im sure abused me in other non physical ways just to have people do what ever he wanted (im only assuming the last part)
as a bit of a back story i spent the better part of 2020 up tell october under the raining brain washing of an asshole i believed everything he said and told me so i spent the better part of id say 3 years believing everything he ever told me and could have done to me he gave me no reason no to trust him and over the course of those 3 years hes also tricked me and got alot of money all this money he got was because i was stupid, i stupidly deiced being his room mate was a good idea but instead of telling him when i chickened out due to being afraid of the bans he said he could have done to me i choose to hide it and lie and blamed it on not being ready money wise (due to credit card debt) well when it finally came out i stupidly said id pay him back the deposit and that was all i wanted to pay back the rest in my eyes was on him because he didnt bother to double and triple check that i was still willing and plus that he went down and signed for it before i even had a chance to see the place physically and get all the ends and outs to know if id be able to afford it. but that wasnt how he saw it i had to pay alot more close to 20,000 dollars back to him as he never found a room mate for that place and that was how much he said he put out while living at that place ment for 2, he put it down to me not doing my job and finding a suitable replacement to take my spot, my own though on this was i never knew it should have been my job to find him a room mate and nor should i have had to do that it should have been his job to do all of that because he had all the info not me. so i was stuck believing i had to pay this back so i tried doing 45 dollars a month with all my bills i figured it was a decent start but this was only to pay back the 2,000 deposit i didnt find out it was alot more until a few months later when he noticed that i had stopped paying him. but things got worse slowly over time, he had a friend whom did not get along with me specially cause im a furry and he hates furrys so every now and then id get off go to bed after saying my friends name in the voice call threw discord some how he claimed to have a thing set up that would alert him any time key words where said and his name's he went by where one of them. so id wake up the fallowing morning to a bunch of angry discord messages from him and we would be having an argument and slowly he would start hinting at some form of punishment for my actions, 99.9% of this was prob stuff i didnt do and was turned to say i did or said this or what ever, me being the dumb ass offered him a set amount of money to try and get out of what ever punishment he had instore for me some times it helped other times it just made it less sever but he took note of that. and things went down hill one day very badly and i got forced onto a gaming schedule always had to be online every night by 730pm in the voice call didnt matter if i was driving home in my car i had to be in the call and would have to fiddly around with my phone while driving if there where issues on my end just to be in this dam call, he didnt care he would just throw out more punishments.
then the kicker came when he realized i wasnt paying any more and he had to have his money so it then became 50 dollars a pay check which i didnt want to do (it slowly went up in a few years) but it was do that or face platform bans i believed he could do this even with out proof that he ha, so i just bit the bullet and did it and slowly went deeper into debt, and deeper into his control, everything i did online was only games he liked or wanted to play alot of fps games i liked playing id have to quite because there would be non stop in voice calls about this person or that person being a hacker because he died, i now personally think his skills in fps where not as good as they once where and alot of the people who had killed him where legit and better than him, but he would always say that im to dumb to notice when some one is using an aim bot hack or other types of hacks that are not blatantly obvious like sitting in spawn and killing people with out even moving, so i would believe him and just move on to the next game, i stopped playing alot of nice games that i enjoyed playing because of him. then had a chance to be free of everything back when classic wow came back out he said 2 years of it and id be free of everything and anything he had on me would be gone and deleted so i figured 2 years should not be to hard until he said end game content was included so my plan of taking it easy and just slowly leveling for to years went out the window as it would not have counted if i didnt do end game stuff so i was a bit screwed as i didnt really like wow(its not the game for me). i dont know how nor do i remember how i was able to break free from wow but i was able to drag him away from it atleast so i didnt have to play it any more.
the gaming group i was in was just me the guy who hated me/ any one who was a furry and the ass hole it was like that for 2 years almost with a few people coming and going some from other countries and atleast one minor (was not to thrilled on that one but he was a pubg player and was the 4th in that group). then things changed during classic wow when a female joined and the guy who hated me was pushed to the side because the girl didnt like him. so during the remaining time starting from some time during the first few weeks of classic wow being out tell october of 2020 it was me the ass hole and this chick as the gaming group she didnt have a job so no money for games so if she didnt have it she would just watch us via his stream on discord, but things where slowly going down hill and they where going fast, we had a big fight in december of 2019 he threated me with lawyers at one point(well said he would get some ) for the money he said i owed him, and this was all late december so i spent the last 2 weeks and i believe the first week of jan 2020 with out him in my life and it was great but at the time i did miss hanging out with him. then came a message from him after he unblocked me on discord claiming the girl that was in the group convinced him to give me a second chance and i stuipedly took it and things from that point on got worse and worse from there. there was a light one day when he talked about needing to go to the dentist and was trying to figure out how he was gonna get there stupid me thought if i take him i will be on his good side and maybe if i keep offering him rides even thought he is one state away and its only like an hours drive to his place i will hopefully be a little more free from his control and get to do what i want, but i was wrong oh so very wrong the second i offered he used that to his advantage specially with the whole covid crap going around i believed almost everything he said specially when it came to the uber drivers not taking people any where and only taking medical people to there jobs, yet people where getting ubers and crap to the airport but i just figured it was a thing in his state. so i would take him almost to all his appointments give up work days call out sick so i could take him places, all because he had me under his spell. and thinks got even worse still i would be forced to spend every night playing what ever game was on the table even if i didnt like it untill 1 am in the morning despite the fact that i had a job to work in the morning so i wasnt getting much sleep or much to eat as id skip meals and what not cause the ass hole who some how had the money for rent could not afford food so unless i bought it for him then he didnt eat (i stupidly would do that from time to time a year before but not as often as i did in 2020).
as 2020 went on he would drag me into more shit of his that i would have to deal with. normally i would not touch on this but as my room is hardly even in a decent state( i am trying to but its slowly and i always fail) i feel i can say his apartment was prob worse than my room, you would walk in and see a line of used paper towels in front of the sink a a plie of them on the floor a bunch of toilet paper and other stuff in the bathroom sink all wet and used for god knows what a sink full of dirty water and dishes, and every time id come up there was a 90% chance i was stuck cleaning up his mess and he would always say ive got back issues so i cant do this and you gotta help me clean up cause the building inspectors are gonna be comming by and if they see it like this i will get billed for a cleaning services and your gonna pay for it, so i would use ruber glovers or a plastic bag to clean up his mess the bathroom sink and his kitchen sink where the worst of the 2 one had fruit flys breeding and growing in there which moved to his trash cans and crap oh so very not cool or fun to clean up but i did it.
around june of 2020 things where very bad for me i had been selling off some of my chars that i didnt use because i was constantly running out of money weather it was cause i was trying to keep from being over drafted or because i was broke and needed money for gas, it got so bad i had to tell my mother i didnt have the money to pay my rent to her. so i had a small light down at the end of that tunnel when my mother gave me 25,000 dollars which took care of my credit card and my pay pal and all i had to do was give her 200 a month until i paid it back in full i was fine with that, but during the time of that being laid into the works the ass hole hit me with another surprises something happened i dont remember what it was but it was my fault and if i didnt pay 2,000 very soon i was gonna lose alot of shit fearing the worse i begged for more time and the second my pay pal showed 0 i sent him the money (i know what your saying why are you being a dumb ass) i took my paypal and my credit card paperless as i started using them almost everything i charged was stuff for him, the big one was oh you damaged my computer and if you dont pay to replace it then you will lose alot of stuff and what not being the dumb shit i was i did it i paid the money for 2 diff computer cases one didnt work (i never got my money back from that one) the second one did. well a few weeks before the 3080 card where set to come out we got into another fight and being afraid of losing stuff i offered to buy him the 3080 and a new power unit as the 3080 required more power than what we currently had in there which was an 800 watt unit so i figured fuck it and spent about a grand between the 3080(a pain in the ass to find, i was in my car waiting and driving around trying to find a place that had one) and the 1600 watt power unit i went with the big one so there would be no issues.
fast forward to october things are getting worse im already maxed on both my pay pal and my credit card and im losing my mind because now im back in the hole my mother had just dug me out of in june. so we are now on the final day and alot has happened, i was at his place helping him clean or i should say doing all the cleaning and having to call out from work, im now being ousted for money i cant afford nor do i have not even selling my sona would have covered it, and this was from one of his friends whom he claimed worked for a big platform and he was gonna have me banned from it among other things if i didnt pay well the ass hole spent a few mins talking with some one or so he claims i could not see the screen but a deal was made where i would hand over names of players on a game whom where breaking the really bad rule and once i got the right amount of people reported in so this guy could get the credit and prob a raise or whatever else i would be considered paid off with him and he would send the close to 800 dollars i needed to fork over i was in tears because it was the first time i felt that some one cared about me and i took that deal(pretty sure it was all fake so he could keep his grip over me) i was also told alot of fake shit that day about my own mother. so when i left his place i shortly joined the discord chat and once i was on the main high way heading home, and thats when things got worse and i started to noticed some stuff wasnt right he started telling the chick about what happened that day and he started lying to her in the call saying i said stuff i never said or changing what i said to fit his narrative and when i tried to correct it we got into a fight and it was basically me leaving the call. when i got home my mother wanted to have a chat with me about some stuff and at the time i didnt like where it was going and i told her what he told me about her which was her assaulting some one in collage and her doing other petty crime shit she literally looked at me then called my aunt whom also happens to work in the court system and told her what i said and that was when i got my freedom my aunt broke his hold over me was able to dispel almost all of what he had said and told me she even offered to come up and pay for the back ground look up on my mother if i didnt believe her. and she saved me from my hell i was in that day, during that time while talking to my aunt he was spam calling my phone none stop so when i was done talking to my aunt i told him we where threw over the phone and hung up now i know in his mind he prob though fuck im losing my slave(kinda felt like i was one as i was told what to do) his mother is probably making him say what he said to me, so he spent the next 3 days spam calling my phone none stop could not do anything on my phone as the calls would interrupt what ever video i was trying to watch so id have to put my phone on air plane mod, during those 3 days he would give my number out to the girl that was in the group and she would spam call my phone, he would leave messages with him crying and or the big ones threw text like hes talking to lawyers and is gonna sue me for all the money he claims i owe him to my second life account getting banned and not getting unbanned until he and i cleared shit up.
then i finally put his number on block and figured i will wait it out and if hes got lawyers and hes gonna sue me let them my mother offered to help and i was gonna sell my hell to the judge and hopefully win a counter suite to get back all i spent on him i was gonna take the computer that i spent the money on and i was gonna keep it he got a nice fancy new laptop i was gonna make sure i got that 2 and i was gonna keep that as well and then find a way to stick him with my pay pal and credit bill take the pc and the laptop out of the money he would owe and call it good. but during that time my second life account was never banned any of my other gaming platform accounts had no bans issued to them.
now that we are all caught up
on to yesterday
so from the date i was freed until today i would get a few random discord friend request from people i didnt know nor shared a sever with so id just block them despite me wanting to find out who they where and to tell them off if it was the ass hole making new accounts to try and wiggle is way back into my life which that slowed when i made sure to leave any sever i was in that he happened to be in then i changed my name and discord tag number which helped, i still get a few here and there and got one from him not sure how though (i only know it was him because of the name he chose to use) and there was one call from him that im glad i missed. now this call i should have never gotten as i paid for a year sub to robo killer that app that is supposed to block spam calls cause i was getting alot of them dam car warranty shit. so i figured fuck it im gonna put his number in the block section so if he does try and call me he will get the karen and i will get a few good laughs out of it, as i hadnt been getting alot of spam calls lately i figured the app was working until today i as i no longer have his number saved to my phone i didnt know it was his and because it was the area code of where my mother works i figured it was her calling me and it just didnt come from her work phone so i answered the second i heard his voice i hung up.
i then got a few text messages from him which im gonna sum up
first was a sorry
the second one was i was in the er for heart problems i dont know how much longer i have im told it could be serious test are still being done and i was told reliving any points of stress or regret might help ( i dont think a doc would tell you that i could be wrong) and he then goes on to his surprise hes realized that he didnt like how we left things and wanted to find closure even if we dont talk any more.
(this isnt a relation ship there is no closure here dumb ass. and we didnt leave things in a bad way. YOU left them in a bad way, YOU abused me and used me YOU put me in this debt hole cause YOU took advantage of me)
then he drops another trying to apologize and if id prefer to be left alone he would understand as he felt the same way prior to this he just didnt want anything left unsaid.
(what i want is 25,000 from your ass that will help pay off my credit card and pay pal and the rest would go to my mother to help pay down what i owe her, thats what i want)
then he goes on with another message that he would not call or message me again
(good)
but he breaks his last message with the summed up fallowing
he said all he wanted to say we had a long friend ship despite everything he wanted to resolve it
if u want to reach out via call or discord id be willing to talk
and how hes gonna keep his word and not text or call me after this.
no matter what he says or does nothing will fix what hes done or make me go back to being friends with him hes to toxic and he uses and abuses people and lies to there face about shit and they believe it. even if he gave me the money to fix the debt im in because of him i still would not talk to him id chase the check but id first make sure its legit then pay off the 2 bills im slowly stuck trying to pay off(i dont know when i will have them paid off) after a week or two just incase there is fraud with the check and the bank can get the money back with no issues lol.
but i sat there after reading his second message and i saw what i wish i had seen all along during other fights we had the words i dont like how we left things. to me that was his way of trying to bait me back into his life and slowly get back control over me and then magically this heart shit would be over and he would be fine. well it aint happening
but to make one point about how i know he was has been lying to me
there was a game i havent touched in a while since i last was on it last year, but my account got hacked according to him during my time with him i was at the movies and some one else was on my account giving out my personal info as well as saying id do stuff for things i wanted in game as well as doing something to a female streamer. now i never questioned that as he had a screen shot of my char being online and what not. he said he was talking with the game mods to work this out but i was gonna end up losing my account because even though it wasnt me they still had to punish me for what happened and he was able to get me a new game code i made a new account transferred all my stuff over and i never bothered to check that account i dont plan to because i dont want to know if it was or wasnt banned. but i was later told a year later that i wasnt allowed to be on unless he was online this was set up as a parent account (never head of that in an online game before) and if i was caught being on with out him being atleast logged into the game i would get banned. well i proved he was lying as i logged in for a few days and nothing happened.
but all and all i was gonna make a journal about how i was happy to be free from that ass hole when the on year anniversary hit but he went and fucked that up. i just wish i had a way out of the hole im in with out owing people any more money but i dought that will happen.
