Like so many people, I have had a lot to think about over the course of this pandemic, and certainly surviving in this one has opened my mind a lot more about the opportunities and possibilities that otherwise would not have crossed my mind had this pandemic did not occur. I do not want to dive into the political stances or skeptical views because I do not want a messy comments section below.
But let's admit the change has already happened. The resulting economic shift and shutdown has evolving into new thinking and pragmaticism in order to survive in this new world, regardless of whether you are ready for this new world order or not.
So have I. I was also skeptical about it at first, but it gave me the courage to stand up for my personal values and merit, and what I really want to do with my life moving forward. As I have previously mentioned (or not, I really do not remember when I wrote the previous journal entry), I work in the medical field. Regardless of what you personally believe what happened in hospitals during the past two years, I am only going to say I was in the front lines of the COVID battle, survived it, currently suffering a type of PTSD in the process as a reward for being a "hero" (medically diagnosed as occupational burnout) in a job I realized a few months back when I put in my resignation "without reservation" that this was not what I have signed up for nor a job I want to continue in the next 5 to 10 years moving forward.
I have spent the past few months in recovery, both from the physical and mental scars of this battlefield. My physical ailments have for the most part recovered and physically fit to work again, but my mind is in a completely another place, not ready to start working again, unable to move on, contemplating.
After many sessions in therapy, I have gained a renewed, newfound passion in trying again for the tech sector. I begun enjoying yoga again (with help from Apple Fitness+), which I just originally took as tedious stretching exercises to help with the physical recovery. Something up until now that was just a passing hobby in coding, making bits of fun animation and automating tedious computer tasks, and rejoining git forums after years of inactivity.
But far from ready to pursue as a paid career, I am preparing to do just that. Hoping a fast-track refresh course in a coding bootcamp can supercharge my awareness, senses, and mindfulness from a long-dormant interest to a well-rewarded career. I can only hope I do not regret the choice I made in leaving another well-paid career behind, the one that left me mentally crippled, and hopefully get started in tech before my unemployment/rainy-day cash-stash savings and UI benefits run out.
I'll be popping in here and now as often as I can while I navigate these treacherous waters called a "dramatic career change." Wish me luck, and I wish you luck as well if you're following a similar path!
Cheers, until I post again.
Hakubara
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