I owe this little burst of activity to a comment I recently received from someone enjoying my Camp Kilo story - so let that be a lesson to you that sometimes what an author needs most is a kick in the arse.
I would like to explain why I have been idle for so long, or at least one of the main reasons why.
Firstly, I lost all the content that would have been part 3 of Camp Kilo (and possibly further parts) to a catastrophic computer failure.
Secondly, I am autistic. This was assessed only this year, but I had been feeling the effects of it in my personal and working life for some time prior to that so when the final assessment came it was nothing but a relief to have a name to put on it all.
These two points are related. You see, before my assessment I had been using my writing as a way of expressing my feelings of not fitting with everyone else, and that there was something wrong with me that I couldn't understand. There was one exchange in what would have been part 3 where 217-B, upon acting like a brainwashed slave once again instead of a newly freed fur, broke down crying and told Roxie that he just wanted to stop being wrong. I teared up while writing it, and though I can recall the broad strokes of the scene and the chapter now that I have my assessment and I am no longer in a particularly unhelpful workplace I can't (and don't particularly want to) put myself back into the headspace of what 217-B was feeling in that moment.
I'll definitely write more, and I've posted my setting notes for a reference point for what I might write in future. I may even write more Camp Kilo, but doing so would be extremely difficult. We'll just see when we see, I suppose.
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